The sun was shining trough my window when I woke up. I could hear my parents fighting downstairs. I sighed and took my phone.
19 new messages from Adam. Shit.
- What are you doing?
- Wanna ft?
- Hello?
- Carly?
- Carly
- Carly
- Hello ??
- Reply
- Are you sleeping?
- It's only 1 o'clock?
- For fuck sake
- Hello
- Hello
- Answer me or i'll come.
- Carly
- HELLO
- Now, remember that I have all your nudes
- Carly
- Fuck you.
- Hey sweetie! sorry that i didn't reply i had a harsh day yesterday and i just wanted to sleep. Love you <3
I got up and went to the bathroom. My period was now exactly 6 weeks late. I was starting to get nervous about it. My mother came and knocked on the door.
"Carly? Can i come in?" I left the toilet and went to open the door. She came in and sat down on the bed. She looked tired and exhausted. I wanted to say something but couldn't really think of anything so I just sat down next to her. "What are you going to do today?" she asked. "I don't know yet, I think I just want to relax," I said. "Well okay" my mother said sourly and was about to leave the room as she turned towards me. "You are so spoiled, you get everything you point at and yet you do not even bother to hang out with your mother?" I looked shocked at her. "I didn't say that"
"No, but you telling me that you just wanted relax tells it all" she said almost shouting. "Relax". She looked at me angrily and slammed the door. Words cannot describe the anger I had in my body right there.
I walked towards my window and looked outside. A new family was moving in. A tall girl with brown hair walked out of the house. I tried to see her face but it was covered by her hair. She stopped and turned to face my house. Our eyes met and it was as if everything just became quiet. We just stood there looking at each other until what looked like her father called her. I got a message on my phone that was still lying on her bed. I picked up the phone and read the message.
- Do you want to go out?
It was from Adam. I looked at myself in the mirror. I had never been happy with my body, even tho i was skinny and had a had some ass The hatred for my body had gotten worse after I started cutting. But that didn't stop me from doing it. There was no one except me who knew I was self harming. Others didn't need to know about it . I looked at the phone again and pondered. But i knew Adam. He was a stubborn guy.
He would still come to my house to pull me out even if I said no.
- Yes of course. I just need to get dressed.
- Ok
