Chapter 13- I'll forgive

                                    

                                          

Jin keeps turning left and right but sleep just doesn't come. He looks at Tae besides him, who's already asleep.
                          
Yoongi said Namjoon has a headache... He gets them when he worries too much... Those are some serious headaches, they are pretty painful... And the only thing that seems to calm him down is some soup... Whenever U make him soup, he gets better... Should I... Should I make it for him? Is he even awake? 
                          
Jin keeps debating whether to cook him soup or not... Unfortunately, Namjoon's health means more to him than his own feelings do. He quietly walks out of the room and goes to the kitchen. 
                          
Just as he turns on the lights, he finds Namjoon, sitting on the counter with his head hung low. Just as the lights turn on, he looks at Jin and smiles. Jin almost melted after looking at those dimples... Almost. 
                          
"I knew you'd come here." Namjoon speaks as he jumps off the counter and walks towards him. Jin gulps and turns towards the refrigerator. 
                          
"Of course. Every human needs water." Jin replies and takes out a bottle of water. Namjoon smiles and stands behind Jin, far enough to not touch him and close enough to make him feel his presence. 
                          
"I know you came to make me your magical soup, Jin." Namjoon whispers, close to his ear. 
                          
"Eh... I.." Jin doesn't find any excuse and Namjoon speaks again. 
                          
"I'm happy. I'm happy to know that... At least you still care." 
                          
Jin can hear the sadness in Namjoon's voice and struggles to prevent himself from hugging him. Jin makes a bold face and turns around, but regret instantly when he comes face to face with Namjoon, his face just an inch away from touching. 
                          
Jin quickly takes a step backwards but his back collide with the refrigerator. Namjoon takes advantage of the situation and takes a couple steps ahead. He slowly takes the water bottle from Jin's hands and puts it aside, just to rest his palms on either sides of Jin's face. 
                          
"You love me. You still love me, don't you? I.. I was worried.. That... You must hate me now but... You still love me." Namjoon speaks with his eyes locked with Jin. 
                          
Jin looks away and replies in a stern tone, "I don't."
                          
"I don't believe you."
                          
"I said I don't."
                          
"Then look me in the eyes and say it again."
                          
Jin takes a deep breath and slowly looks up to meet his eyes with Namjoon, but all he see is love in Namjoon's eyes. The love that he has always seen in all these years. The love that never faded. The love that made him what he is today. The love that was always there for him, through thick and thin. Jin can't help but let out the tears. 
                          
Namjoon frowns and wipes Jin's cheeks. "I'm sorry. I really am." Namjoon pleads and takes Jin's hands in his. "I don't deserve this... I don't deserve you... But I'm selfish. My love for you? It's selfish. I can't live without you, Jin, I can't. I need you. I can't ask you to forgive me.. I can't ask you to forget what happened.. I can't ask you to move on.. But still, I am. I am asking for a second chance, Jin. Can you... Can you please, give me a second chance?"
                          
Jin finally let's out everything he has been holding inside. He breaks down in front of Namjoon. He starts crying and Namjoon quickly takes him in a hug. He embraces Jin's body as if Jin is the most precious thing for him, as if his life depends on him, as if he's his whole world. Jin on the other hand, just keeps crying and crying. This is the effect Namjoon has on him. He can be strong for eternity, for everyone around him, but when it comes to Namjoon, he knows he doesn't have to be. He knows that he can let his walls down and doesn't need to pretend. He knows that Namjoon can handle him. He knows that Namjoon... Is the solution to his every problem. 
                          
"I hate you! I hate you so much Joon, I hate you so much!" Jin speaks with gritted teeth while grabbing Namjoon tightly against him. 
                          
Namjoon chuckles lightly and hugs Jin even tighter. "Then why does that sound like a love confession to me?"
                          
Jin pulls back from the hug and looks at Namjoon's face. "I still haven't forgiven you."
                          
Namjoon's face drops and he nods slowly. "It's.. It's okay.. I deserve that."
                          
"What you deserve, is a punishment." Says Jin, making Namjoon look at him confusingly. 
                          
"A punishment? What? What punishment?"
                          
Jin just picks up the water bottle and walks off after saying, "You'll see."
                          
I'm not rushing, right? :)