Chapter 30

                                    

                                          
Jesy POV:
                          
I watch Chris leave the room. I don't want him to leave me alone. I need him. I sigh and look down as the doctor awaits the sound of the closing door. He clears his throat as he gets up, takes a huge folder from his shelf and copies some sheets "Right Miss Nelson. I need you to fill this test out honestly to help us find you a diagnosis for your treatment. Your boyfriend briefly told us what bothers you and we have a certain suspicion, but to confirm or deny it, we need to you answer this test okay?" I take the test from his outstretched hand and he hands me a pen to fill it out. I take my time to fill out the test. When I finish, I give it to him and watch him scan the test thorughly, note some things down and nod. I roll my eyes and he hands me another two tests  "Now these two too please Miss Nelson." I fill them both out too and look down as I'm anxiously waiting for him to say something, bouncing with my leg and fiddling with my sleeves. But I won't get an asnwer as he looks at me "Miss Nelson we need you to stay here immediately." I get up and feel tears welling up in my eyes. I push past a very confused Chris and flop down on the chair. I hear faint talking but ignore it as I continue to let my tears fall and try to process what just happened. Did Chris know I might have to stay immediately? I don't know and I wait for him to finally come out of this room. I don't even bother to look around. I just stare blankly at the grey floor.



                          
Chris POV: 
                          
"Well Mr. Hughes...Miss Nelson has to stay here immediately as her condition is really dangerous and concerning. I let her do a test for depression and an eating disorder. I analyzed the results and have to come to the diagnosis of a severe depression, anorexia nervosa and bulimia nervosa. So we need you to pack her things and we'll get her room and plan ready. After you've packed, you'll come back and we'll talk together through some things okay?" I gulp and nod. That's why Jesy must have been so upset. I get up on a little bit unsteady legs and open the door "Jess?" She only hums, still staring at the ground "Let's get your stuff ready at home." She nodds, gets up and walks down the corridor with her head hanging low and not even waiting for me. With quick steps I catch up "Baba what's wrong?" She says nothing but I have to accept it. Maybe she's still overwhelmed. On the ride home, the tension was so thick you could have cut it with a knife. When I placed my hand on her thigh, she cleared her throat and moved away, so I put both my hands back on the steering wheel. At home we quickly pack her suitcase and beauty case, but didn't speak a single word. We finished and I finally raised my voice "Jesy I can feel you're up to something and it's not just the sudden stay." I hug her from behind as she backs away immediately, looking out of the window before taking a deep breath and staring me dead in the eye "Have you already known that I had to stay there immediately? Have you planned this? Was this purpose?" She snaps at me "No Jess what are you thinking? I was just as shocked as you were but the doctor told me your condition was really dangerous and concerning baba" I reach for her hands but she yanks away and looks with watery eyes at me "Come on let's get it over with." She turns away and picks up the suitcase and leaves the room. I just stand there stunned not knowing what to do, so I sit down on the bed and rest my head on my hands. Have I pushed her to do things she wasn't ready to do yet? I was ripped out of my thoughts when she stands in the doorway, leaning against it "You ready?" I get up "No. I don't want you to leave baby" I tear up and she finally hugs me "I don't want to either. But there is no turning back now." She Looks t me, leans in and captures my lips in a passionate kiss. Sadly we pull away and head downstairs to my car. On the ride I could put my hand on her thigh again and she even put her hand on mine. As we arrive, I help her carry her belongings as we enter the section we were told to go. I open a big white door with her name on it. The room looks actually good. The walls are a light green, the bed is not a hospital bed as we expected it to be, a little sitting area and a small bathroom. I help her sort her things as the doctors come in. "Hello Miss Nelson, hello Mr. Hughes. You know me already but I want you to meet your nurse Amelie and your therapist Miss Ritchie" They both say hello to us and look actually quite friendly. Jesy moves a little away from them and grabs my arm "Jess baba they will help you." She nodds but her grip around my arm tightens as I now see why. I see the doctor holding a  long tube "We'll have to put Miss Nelson on a feeding tube because her weight is dangerously low and she is at a high risk of heart failure." She starts hiding behind me "No I'm not doing this." "Miss Nelson we need you to cooperate or we'll have to find another way." I look at her "Baba please. Do it for me. For the girls. For your fans. We want the best for you. We want you to live." She nodds and lets go of my arm and sits down on the bed. I watch as the doctors put the tube on and watch her pained expression. Suddenly I feel bad and I don't know why. As they finished, she gets up and falls into my arms. I hug her tightly and rest my head on hers "Now for the plan. Miss Nelson you will get your individual therapy and meal plan. Mr. Hughes please tell friends and family that visiting times are from 4pm to 5pm. Miss Nelson we'll see you in an hour downstairs for dinner." I bite my lip to hold back tears and look down at her. Her body is shaking from the heartbreaking sobs she's releasing. "Come here I got you babygirl." I let her cry until her nurse comes in and shots me a sympathetic glare "I'm sorry Mr. Hughes the visiting time is over now." I feel her grasp tighten on my shirt and her sobs becoming louder "No don't go!" "Baby I'll come back tomorrow I promise." "No I want you to stay here!" "Baba I don't wanna get you in trouble and I don't wanna leave either." "Then stay." I sigh and carefully sit her down on the bed and hold her hands "Baba I promise you I'll come back tomorrow and we'll cuddle okay? I'll also bring the Girls." She nodds "I love you Chris." "I love you too babygirl." She lets go of my shirt and the nurse leads me outside. Before I exit the section I look at her "Please take good care of her." She nodds and smiles reassuring "Don't worry we will." I thank her and quickly make my way to my car. Inside I look to my right to find an empty seat. I already miss her. I rest my head back and take out my phone and watch a video of us where we dance in her kitchen. I let my tears fall and shut my phone again. I look at the building one last time "You'll do it Jess. You're a warrior and tomorrow I'll see your pretty face and hear your chaotic laughter again. Good night baby I love you and sleep tight." I whisper and drive through the rain to Jesy's  house.