Chapter 62: I-I couldn't handle the pain

                                    

                                          
A/N: Don't let the chapter title mess with you! <3
                          
Kara's POV 
                          
Tonight is the night that the boys are going to have their first show of the Sounds Live Feels Live tour! I'm so excited, knowing that this is going to be the first 5sos concert I've been to. 
                          
We were all currently setting up the stage. I pulled out the camera and started to record them. Cassie helping Ash with his drum set. Ella and Calum being the crazy couple they are and dancing around the stage because we're currently listening to Nirvanna while we're setting things up. Faith was setting up the microphones and come to think of it, I have no idea where Luke is. Then I hear him.
                          
 "Ugh, I wanna have sex with this guitar so bad." Luke groans as he walks up to an electric guitar that was on the floor. I laugh and saw Faith roll her eyes and go back to working on the microphone. 
                          
 " Luke! " I whisper yell at him. He looks at me. I tilt my head, directing towards Faith. I don't know what was going on in his head in that moment but it worked. His eyes grew wide. I looked at Faith and saw the main lights that shine on the stage were on. It was honestly very stunning, seeing the lights on her and seeing her stand in front of a microphone. Luke quietly walked up behind her, wrapping his arms around her waist. I'll admit it, I am a miracle worker. I turned off the camera and started watching over it. I was then snapped out of my thoughts by Michael, who wrapped his arms around me and picked me up. "Mikey!" I yell while laughing.
                          
 " What? " He acts innocently which is my soft spot and he carefully put me back down.
                          
 "I'm working, shouldn't you be getting ready?" I ask as I took his hat off of him and put it on myself. He wrapped his arms around my waist and kisses me softly. 
                          
"I am ready." He smiles, running his fingers through his read hair. 
                          
"Do you want your surprise?" I ask him.
                          
" Do I look patient? " He asks eagerly causing me to laugh. I reached in my pocket and pulled out his present. I look over it, making sure it was in perfect condition. The present is a necklace with a metal guitar pick with a small heart on it, saying 'I pick you' . I look up at him and smile slightly. I get on my tippy toes and put the necklace on him. Michael looks at it and then looks at me with his forest green eyes sparkling in the light. "Aww, thank you baby. I love you." He smiles. 
                          
" I love you too. " I reply, returning the smile. I get on my tip toes to meet our lips in a kiss and I hug him. We released and one of the guys on the 5sos crew came from backstage.
                          
"Show starts in 30, we're letting the people in." He tells us. We all cheer.
                          
"Lets do this!!!" Ash yells causing me to laugh.
                          
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Cassie, Faith, Ella, and I were currently backstage, listening to the boys being their goof selves. Making the fans go crazy. 
                          
"Who is hot and sweaty?" Michael asks and the crowd cheers. "Who is sexy and sweaty?" He asks and the crowd cheers. "Who is feeling naughty and is really sweaty?" Michael asks and the crowd cheers again. "Nice!"
                          
"Are you seriously hitting on 15,000 people right now?" Calum asks and all of us backstage laugh.

                          
"I am but I'm just making sure everyone feels the same." Michael points out. 
                          
"Okay so, this next song." Luke starts. "This is Broken Home and uh... Ashton's sister actually wrote this song." Luke tells the crowd and they cheer. I feel myself blush out of embarrassment. Michael starts playing the guitar.
                          
"They would yell, they would scream, they were fighting it out." Luke starts singing the first verse. I saw Ashton look down, something was wrong. Ashton then stood up and ran off the stage, coming backstage. 
                          
"Ash!" Cassie yells with worry in her voice. We saw him run and we all run after him. Ashton eventually leaned against a wall and fell to the floor. His face in his knees. Cassie sat next to him and I sat on the other side of him. Ashton's shoulders were moving up and down rapidly as he was crying. "Ashton what's wrong? Why did you run off stage?" Cassie asks him.
                          
"I-I couldn't handle the pain... I couldn't handle the memories." Ashton replies softly. Cassie and I exchange worried looks. I sigh as I felt the same pain Ashton was. 
                          
"Ash look at me." I say. Ashton slowly lifted his head and his cheeks were stained red from crying and his hair was in his face. "I'm sorry that I haven't been there for you as much as I wanted," I tell him. "I know exactly what pain you feel right now. You may not agree with me but it's not your fault. Maybe we were made to go through that so we can a brighter future for ourselves. Things will never be the same but eventually... the pain and sadness will lessen. I promise that I'm here for you Ashton." I tell him feeling tears come to my eyes. He immediately hugged me and I hugged him back.
                          
"Thank you." He whispers in my shoulder and I smile slightly.
                          
A/N: Hey fellow peeps! How is everyone? I hope everyone is safe, I really want this virus to be gone but that will be a while. I love you all! Peace out!