Chapter 22

                                    

                                          
Chris POV:
                          
*Flashback*
I can't believe how skinny Jesy is. When I stroked her back yesterday and felt her spine I was so shocked how she could do this to her gorgeous self. A lot of women wish they had these incredible curves and it pains me and the girls she doesn't see it. She is like a butterfly. Butterflies have got so pretty wings but don't see them. Jesy is such a beautiful, gorgeous woman and doesn't see it. Anyways when she removed her hoodie, I was even more shocked. Her bones stick out everwhere and I could see the pure anger, frustration and sadness in her eyes. When we were later in her bedroom and things got quite heated, she stopped and locked herself in the bathroom.
*end of the flashback*
                          
„Jess baba please open this door" I kept knocking but all I heard were her sobs „No I'm ugly, fat and disgusting I don't want you to see me naked." My heart broke. How can she say tha about herself „Baby listen. You're not ugly neither fat or disgusting. You're one of the prettiest girls I've ever seen and when I first saw you I'm not gonna lie I immediately fell in love with you." Silence. „Babe..." I bit my lip. Is she okay? „Baby open this door please." Nothing „Babygirl I'll ask you one more time to open or I'll come in myself..." Nothing. Fuck I hope she's okay. I threw myself against the door and found her curled up in the corner rocking back and forth. I carefully came closer, sat next to her and my heart broke more. She was crying and it breaks my heart seeing her like this. Blinking back my own tears, I pull her in my embrace „It's okay baby I'm here now." I rock her back and forth stroking her hair „It's okay let it all out baby..." the door went open and a shocked Jade stood there. „Jess I- are you okay?" she sat down next to me. I told her about the situation with the hoodie and she nodded with tears in her eyes. Jesy still cried into my chest while Jade looked around to prevent herself from crying. I took my free arm and pull her in my embrace too „It's okay I got you" and she started crying too. God what damages that ex must have done to break her like this. I rocked them both until Jade pulled away and mumbled a faint „Thank you Chris" I nodded and pulled Jesy completely on my lap, got up and carried her into the living room. There I lay us down and she starts shaking and looks at me anxiously „C-Chris... I-I-I c-can't b-b-breathe..." Jade rushed over and took her hands „Look at me Jess... look at me...tell me five things you see." „You... Chris... the telly... uh... Reggie... and Oscar" „Well done baba. Now 4 things you can touch." „Your hands... my hair... the blanket and the pillow." „Great. Now please three things you can taste." „Coffee... chocolate... chewing gum." „Very well done. Two things you can hear baba." „Your voice and Chris breathing." „You're doing great. Now one thing you can smell." „Uh... Chris cologne." „Well done baba. Now breathe with me." I watch as they breathe together and feel Jesy calm down again. When she was better again, she hugged Jade and cuddled back into me. „Thanks Jade, glad you came." „Yea no problem. I just wanted to come over to grab me jacket I forgot last time." She picked up the jacket and smiled at me. She left and I looked at Jesy lying on my chest. „You okay now babygirl?" I feel her nod and sigh. „You scared me bubs." she sits up and looks at me „Baby I'm so sorry for what happened... but I can't help it... I always tried to avoid having intimacy with Harry cause I also had some insecurities. So that's why he must have cheated on me." „Baby stop apologizing. It's not your fault and if he didn't accept you with your insecurities he wasn't the right one." „Yes but I literally threw you off me and ran away..." „Babe..." „I thought I have to do it because you wanted to and I couldn't do it anymore..." „Jess babe listen. I won't ever force you to anything. Look at me...am I mad that we didn't do it?" she looks at me then down „I don't know." „Baby... hey I'm not mad. I'm actually proud of you." she looks confused at me „I'm proud of you for telling me you aren't ready yet. If you wouldn't have told me, you would have felt bad or pressured." „But I reacted in a very cruel way babe you didn't deserve." „Jess listen. I'm glad you told me so we can work things out okay? I won't pressure you to do anything when you're not ready. If you truly love someone, you'll wait, take care and respect them. And I love you with all your insecurities and I promise you baba we can work this out together. I'm also proud we flushed your blade. Another huge step for you." I kiss her temple. She smiles weakly „Thank you Chris..." She rests her head back on my chest and sighs contently. My phone vibrates and I check it.
                          
From Jade: Hiya fella thanks for taking so much care of Jess and me in the bathroom. It honestly melted my heart when I saw yous🤧
                          
From Chris: Aww come on Jade it's alright☺️
                          
Bubbly girl. I shut my phone and turn back to my now sleeping girlfriend. I smile and carefully carry her upstairs into the bedroom. Laying her down carefully, I throw a blanket over her and give her a gentle kiss whispering „It's been a tough day. Sleep tight my princess." I quickly change into comfy clothes and slide under the covers next to her,  putting an arm around her.






                          
Another chapter 🌚 dunno why my chapters are so boring and nonsense atm🤔