Chapter 20

                                    

                                          
Chris POV:
                          
The last few days passed and I can't believe Jesy is my girlfriend. She was cleared to go home and we just checked out of the hospital. But she still looks very sad and unhealthily thin. I offered her a piggyback and she immediately jumped on my back. God she is so light... I'm really worried. „Jesy shall we help you with something or are you good?" „I'm good girls. Chris will be helping me aren't you?" I nod and carefully put her in the car. We say goodbye to each other and drive home. The ride was rather silent and as we reached her house, Jesy tensed up. „What's wrong?" „I don't know... I'm fine..." I nod and I help her carry her bags and putting the clothes back. We finished and she plopped on the bed patting the place next to me. I sit down and she fiddles nervously with her sleeves. She looks at me with teary eyes and I immediately hug her. „Baby you don't need to talk or be in this relationship. If you don't feel comfortable." „No Chris it's okay." I let her cry until she looked at me again „There's something you should know..." I turn to her and take her hands stroking them „Go ahead whenever you're comfortable to tell me." she nodds „Well..." I see her roll up her sleeves and I can see her scars. I tear up as I run my thumb over them. They're really deep. „I do this to myself because I need to make myself feel something..." she starts crying again and I hug her again pulling her on my lap „I don't know what to do Chris..." „Baby I promise we'll get through it okay? Do you know what? I got an idea... how about you show me where they are and we flush them down the toilet." she thinks for a bit and nodds „Yea? Would you be okay with it?" she nodds and gets up. I take her hand as she leads me in her spacious bathroom. She takes a lipstick, opens it and pours the blade on her hand. „Is that the only one?" she nodds. I take it and look at it. It had dried blood on it and I hold back tears again. „You ready baby?" she nodds and opens the toilet. I put the blade in her hand and mine on hers and together we throw it in and flush. After we finished, she dropped to the ground and starts crying. I pull her close and comfort her. „I know it's hard baby but I promise I'll help you." I feel her nod and pick her up. I lay her down on the bed. I see her closing her eyes so I throw a blanket over her and got ready to leave, when I felt her pull my arm. „Baby can you stay?" her voice sounds really sad and broken so I nod and lay down next to her. She immediately curls up into a ball in my chest and I wrap an arm around her as we drift off to sleep.