4.Bound

                                    

                                          
It's been 3 weeks Avyakta was staying with them. She was adjusting with them slowly. Siddhant wanted to take it slow  not even let her come inside their room. Why? Because it had all the memories of them attached on the wall. He felt that she might feel awkward and worried what if she would get a trauma after seeing them. Also, he never wanted to take them out. Though, everything that happened has to be revealed soon but slow,something that was need of the hour.
Siddhant joined his office,soon after seeing her recover a bit.
She would smile in the talking session,accompanied by Savita,Vijay and Priya but as soon as it was joined by Siddhant she would stop smiling and would avert her eyes,biting her pink lips.
                          
Savita and Priya refused to keep any nurse for Avyakta when Siddhant asked them. They wanted to take care of her themselves.
                          
Avyakta would simper and joke a bit sometimes but behind these only she's aware what's going inside her.
                          
It was 12am, and Avyakta believed that,all must have slept by now. Sleep was far away from her and her mind couldn't let her close her eyes,even. She would get up and lay down,again. Getting up,she walked to the balcony and stared ahead. A sigh escaped her mouth. Several questions enveloped her.
What life she has got?  What sins did she do to get this life? She was living here with them, but...what really happened with her? 
Never ever she thought,she would get to see like this and it is just not with her. But with everyone. We, ourselves, tend to see some things in life which prove to be unthinkable and unbelievable. 
She was here,with them. With Siddhant. But for her it soon felt like a boundation. 
This world in which She was living suddenly, felt pitch dark, dreary, harrowing and spine chilling. She was disturbed and felt suffocated. This was something, she was experiencing for the first time. She kept her hand on her heart and felt her heart beats impulsive. She realized that she couldn't breathe. 
                          
Avyakta ran inside and searched for her medecines. Something was not right. 
Panic attacks.
For the first time she was experiencing them. She opened many drawers but could get only pens and some papers. She opened one drawer,then the other. 
She was panting. When she opened a drawer, she moved her hand and searched for her medecines. She didn't know that her overthinking,would bring her panic attacks. On tge spur of the moment, her hand laid on a card and she took it. 
It looked like a love confession and birthday card. Though,she was huffing,still she took it and opened it. 
                          
My Love Avyakta,
Something beautiful  happened with me since the time you came in my life. The day we married is one of the best day of my life as I found  my best friend for life. It is true,I was skeptical in the beginning,but you made me feel so loved and comfortable,that I can't imagine a life without you. Since, it is difficult to find very genuine person these days and I'm blessed to have you as my darling wife. I want to confess that I love you to the infinity. Something that I just can't express in words. You are one in a million. Today being your Birthday,I wish you a very joyous and happiest life.
Happy Birthday My Love,My Bangram!
                          
(Wear that dress and I will be waiting for you tonight in that resturant. Come soon!!
Address behind the card!)
                          
Your darling Husband,Siddhant..
                          
And with that she saw an attached image of his and her,standing too close,smiling at each other.
She couldn't breathe. Palpitations.
The card fell down in the drawer and she,in haste couldn't close it completely. She stood a step back, stared at the drawer, breathed heavily and ran towards the door. Avyakta,opened it and ran fast upstairs, guessing it to be a terrace because at that time she needed air. 
She opened the door that lead to the terrace and walked inside. Her face was drained in sweat,showing complete scare. 
Everything stood infront her tarblack. She sat on the swing and could feel her heartbeats and breathing rate normal,gradually. Tears came out like a stream emerging from mountains. She was messed up. She wanted to run away from everyone, even her mother and father too. She wanted to live alone. 
Why? When? How?
She was petrified.