Chapter 12

                                    

                                          
Jesy POV: 
                          
Wow. This guy, I think Chris was his name, is actually cute. I can't believe a former Love Island participant is sitting right infront of me. Internally I freak out but on the outside I try to act cool. „So...I think it's very strange having my favorite girl group right infront of me..." we smiled at him. „Thank you for rescuing our friend" Jade says putting a protective arm around me. „No problem. My pleasure." He nervously ran his hands through his hair. He's so cute but I don't think I can ever start a normal relationship again since the thing what Harry did to me... I was caught off guard and just stared into the distance. „Jesy? Hellooo? You there?" I shook my head and smiled. I looked back at Chris seeing him observing my features. He noticed I've been staring, blushed and tried to act it cool. After a few more hours Chris went home sadly. We thanked him and he returned a smile. When he hugged me goodbye, I felt him put something in my pocket. We pulled away when he winked and left. Back in the living room I wanted to look at the thing he gave me but was interrupted from three worried girls looking at me. „Everything okay girls?" „Jess we actually should be asking you this..." „Why I'm..." „Don't lie. If you were fine you wouldn't have gone to the bridge to fucking kill yourself." Wow I didn't expect Perrie to yell at me. I only looked down to hide my forming tears. „Why do you think we don't know what's going on? We clearly see you're not fine and do you think we're dumb?" „Pez please don't yell." „Don't yell? I'm just as fucking worried as you guys. How would you feel if one of your best friends keeps lying to you and you're so fucking worried that person might kill themself when you expect it the least? Would you... stay calm and play it cool?" I couldn't take Perrie yelling anymore. I got up and walked home. On my way home I started crying. It was already dark outside so noone shall be here to prevent me from doing it. I walked back to the bridge looking for people that might prevent me from jumping. Good. Noone nearby. Smiling I climbed over the parapet again and the only thing that prevented me from falling were my hands around it. Looking down at the cars driving by I whispered to myself „You're not good enough. All you need is one more step to be free..." I let go of my hands and only stood there on the small piece of concrete. I carefully turned around my back facing the street. I closed my eyes and wanted to lean back when I heard someone shouting my name. Oh not again. I saw three people running towards me. Perrie, Leigh and Jade. Great. Well done. I sigh and put my hand to the parapet. „Stop!" they kept running until they reached me. „Jesy please come here. Don't jump." Leigh moved closer „Leave me alone or I'll jump." „Jess no please." she came closer again. Perrie gestured Jade to call an ambulance. „I'm warning you. One step closer and I'll throw myself off this bridge." „Why Jesy?" „I'm done with life. You will never understand. I'm fucking broken inside okay? I'm broken! This fucking life is too much for me! Why shouldn't I just jump?" „Because suicide doesn't end the pain it just passes it to someone else babe. You think suicide is the best option?" „Yes of course it is." we looked at each other. Perrie went one step to Leigh and right in that moment I leaned back and fell. „JESY!" I heard muffled screams but I didn't care. I fell and fell and fell. To calm myself I keep saying „Went good so far. Went good so far. Went good so far." I smiled and then my body hit the ground. The only thing I remember was falling and then a sharp pain followed by a bright light.




                          
I'm back tehe sorry I always take my time and at the moment I really wanna kms and have no motivation to do anything but yea. What will happen? Is Jesy dead? What's with Leigh, Jade, Perrie and maybe Chris?