Finding the Words

                                    

                                          
Requested by Sucker4LoveStory, Natasha dated Bucky when she worked for KGB and confronts Steve about it when he comes back. 
                          
Steve couldn't remember a time where he had been more happy. He had been dating the love of his life for six months now and although she still hadn't told him she loved him, Steve was pretty sure that she was as happy with him as he was with her.
                          
On top of that, Bucky was finally back to himself. He had just moved back into the compound and was beginning to train with the rest of them a few times a week to possibly become part of the team eventually. 
                          
The day he was moving in, Steve could hardly contain his happiness. 
                          
"What's got you so happy?" Natasha asked from her spot on his bed when he came in with a tray of breakfast for her. 
                          
Steve grinned, "Bucky's moving into the compound today. T'challa just called me to let me know. Apparently he and Stark set it up a while ago." 
                          
Natasha's smile faltered for a second but she plastered it back on the second it disappeared, "Today? That's great."
                          
Steve sat next to her and raised an eyebrow, "Is something wrong?" 
                          
Natasha shook her head, "No. I mean, really Steve. That's really great. You'll get your best friend back." 
                          
Steve still wasn't a hundred percent sure she was being honest but he let it slide. Whatever it was, she wasn't going to tell him right now. She'd tell him when she was ready. She always did. 
                          
"Yeah, I'm excited to see him again. You wanna come down to the lobby with me to help them unload the plane? T'challa said they'd be here in twenty minutes."
                          
Natasha shook her head, "You go ahead, I'm gonna take a quick shower and get dressed. I'll be down in a half hour or so." 
                          
Steve nodded, pressing a quick kiss to her forehead, "I'd offer to join you but I think I'm expected downstairs."
                          
Natasha smirked, pulling him back down to her lips for a brief but passionate kiss as he stood to leave, "Don't worry. I'm sure you'll need a shower after helping Bucky unpack. Maybe I'll join you then." 
                          
Steve shook his head with a small smile, "You're a damn tease Romanoff." 
                          
She grinned again, "Only with you." 
                          
Steve rolled his eyes and pecked her lips again, "I'll see you soon."
                          
Natasha nodded and Steve left the room. 
                          
She waited a few minutes for him to leave and then cursed quietly, running a hand through her hair and sighing. 
                          
Natasha had been putting off telling Steve about her past with Bucky for as long as she could. She knew he was still self-conscious about everything when it came to women, and knowing that she had a serious relationship with his best friend while he had been frozen in the ocean wouldn't do anything good. 
                          
She knew he trusted her. Steve would never think she was cheating on him. 
                          
What she was worried about, was that he would suddenly feel like he was in the way of the two people he cared about most. 
                          
Natasha worried that he'd try and let her go. That he would want her and Bucky to rekindle the romance they had long ago just because he wanted them both to be happy, even if it hurt him. 
                          
It wouldn't be reasonable of course. Natasha's feelings for Bucky had been something she left behind when she joined Shield. And when she met Steve, he was the only person who could make her feel the way she did.