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"Shut up, you idiot!" I pulled his body closer to mine and rested my head on his chest.
                          
"That's kinda gay." Remus snorted "Remus- You're gay" Virgil stated "So are you- tumblr boy." Remus called Virgil out "That's it!" Virgil got up from the snow and started running after Remus who had not yet moved and was shuffling backwards in the snow. Flicking ice up at Virgil, Remus jumped from his spot and ran into the woods screaming "RUN RUN- AS FAST AS YOU CAN! You'll never catch me- I'm the garbage man!" Remus chuckled "I'M GONNA END YOU" Virgil then ran in after him.
                          
"They- kinda ruined the moment, didn't they?" Deceit laughed quietly with pain in his throat "Any moment with you is a good one" tears fell from the corners of my eyes as I just warmed up to Deceit's grip. "I- I had a plan, you know." Deceit reminded me "I wasn't just gonna leave you-" I nodded slowly "I know." I mouthed out to him "And- Patton had found out about my plan.." My eyes widened slightly "But he didn't do anything rash because- I think he could tell- and I'm not too sure if you can because I never out right said it to you but.."
                          
My eyes let out a flow of tears as I broke into a quiet scream "I love you, Y/n." Deceit told me. I looked up at his face as he looked down at me "I love you too.." I muttered "And I can't understand why you ever would- but that doesn't mean it's a bad thing." Deceit said "Things that aren't understood aren't bad" I reminded him as I reached up and grabbed the side of his face softly. I pulled his face down to my level and leaned in, his gentle lips grazing against mine and then- in a moment- I felt like dying and I felt like being alive. Both intense and exciting feelings. "Is this real?" I pulled away from him "Does it matter?" Deceit asked me, his red eyes shining.
                          
"Is it a dream?" I questioned "Everything's a dream when I'm with you." Deceit held onto my hand and gave it a small kiss "Can we go home?" I asked him breathlessly "You don't know?" Deceit looked at me with concern written all over his face "know what?" His eyes darted to the side as he tried his best not to look at me "This is home." I furrowed my brows "What?-" when he looked back at me, he was crying. "The state of Thomas's mind that we were in- i- it's depression-" Deceit tried his best to explain to me while he was still crying heavily "How long has it been like this??" my heart broke with every word I heard coming from his mouth.
                          
"For a while it's been cold but you leaving was the last straw for us- we were so sad before but you being here warmed our hearts and with you being gone again- I- it all froze over. And like Logan said.. Deceit will stop lying when hell freezes over- and he wasn't wrong!" Deceit clutched onto his chest "I'm here now! It's okay!" I hugged onto his freezing body and shivered "I- I know so why hasn't the snow cleared up??" Deceit looked around frantically confused "who did this?" Deceit stopped in his tracks completely before sighing and taking both of my hands.
                          
"You."
                          
"What do you mean- I did this?" Deceit pulled his hands away and covered his face "You make such the impact on us and I can't help but be greedy with you!" He shook his head intensely "You're their friend- HIS friend but- My love. This sets off so many signals in Thomas's head that now he doesn't know how to feel about you and is going through a mental breakdown." Deceit calms down after that sentence "And- We have to be prepared for the meltdown, because if we aren't than we'll swept somewhere else." Deceit looks to the ground and then snaps his head up with a smile.
                          
"Somewhere else.." He thought again in his head "THAT'S IT! We'll get swept away into the mind wipe and start somewhere new!" Deceit cheered happily "Who know's where we'd end up!" I disagreed at first "Yes but either way- it's fine! This is OUR system and if we're forcefully swept away and dragged somewhere else than we stay there. Bad or not- We will HAVE to belong there!" He explains to me "Say- We end up in the light side's state.. We'd have no choice but to be considered light sides! Although- we can still be shadowed from giving Thomas negative thoughts, but it'll be okay because we're only living there!" I raise a brow.
                          
"The light side's state? They could bring me back!" Deceit shakes his head and gives me a huge hug "I don't think you can leave anymore." his smile falters "w-what?" He then pulls away once again "Like I've explained.. You're a big part of Thomas's mind.." Deceit spoke quietly as to try not to shoot me with this information. It didn't work and his words pierced through my heart like venom. "Does that mean I don't get to see Joan again- Or Talyn-??" I scrunched my face up slightly as I choked "No! You will be able to return to the normal world but-... Like us.." I moved my hands to my head and started to feel dizzy.
                          
"I- I don't want to be like you."
                          
I fell over then, Deceit running and catching me before I hit the ground. His knees grazing the ground, his arms sheltering me from the upcoming storm. The blizzard's starting to hit, the pieces of snow falling to the round in groups, hail dancing around the sky. Remus and Virgil returned with scared looks on their faces, joining me on the ground. 
                          
"I know." 
                          
Deceit whispered to me before I started to feel myself drift away. The information was too much for me to take in and now I was passing out in the snow, how wonderful has this day been? I just want to be myself- a physical human being- one that gets to go everywhere when they want to. But- everyone wants that  and if I just did than it'd be selfish- and I'm not selfish.