29- Empty Hearts

                                    

                                          
"I am sorry." Rush murmured gently. His hands came up to touch my face. Worry and fury was covering every inch of his beautiful face.
                          
"I should not have forced you to come here. I should not have forced you to come between all this. I should not... I should not have shifted and fought in front of you. You were so frightened, God!" 
                          
I could not deny any word that he was saying, because honestly all of them were true. I had never seeing a more terrifying sight than that in my entire life. I knew none of them would ever hurt me. But I also knew that I was not safe around them.
                          
"It is alright, Rush." I assured him with a hint of smile. 
                          
He hesitantly smiled back at me. "Want to go back home, baby?"
                          
I nodded my head and tried to slip out. But before I could put my neatly bandaged feet down on the ground, Rush was scooping me up in his arms.
                          
"I can walk." I assured and tried to get off his arms but he did not let me.
                          
"Yeah. And I can fly." He rolled his eyes teasingly. 
                          
I snickered at his words and quit my attempts. He started to carry me out while Aster stood nearby the door with her arms crossed below her chest, staring at us.
                          
Just as we were about to walk out of the door, a hand shot out to grab Rush's arm.
                          
"Where are you taking her?" Liam's tensed voice interrupted us. Looking up at him, I gave him a look that I would give to a complete stranger. Aloof and distant.
                          
"Take your hand off!"Rush growled, "I am taking her home where she belongs. You can enjoy your castle."
                          
Liam's jaw tightened in anger, "She is not well enough to leave yet. Stay here for a bit more time. I have called in the pack doctor for her check up."
                          
"I am okay, Rush." I responded and put my head on his shoulder, trying to hide my face so that I would not have to look at Liam's face, "Let's go home."
                          
"Back off!" Rush growled.
                          
"Can't you do just one thing that I am asking of you to do for Eva's sake?" Liam snapped, "She is so pale and sick. Do not try to be egoistic for now!"
                          
Rush took a couple of steps forward in Liam's space and snapped, "Do not fucking try to teach me what is right or wrong for my mate, you asshole. Get away and fuck that alpha trophy of yours!"
                          
I heard a shuffle and when I opened my eyes, Aster was coming to stand in front of Liam. She grabbed his chin in her fingers and and pulled his mouth in a deep kiss in front of my eyes. 
                          
I immediately looked away. I was unable to consume the sight of her mouth on Liam's. Before I could say anything, Rush was storming out of the palace with me tucked safely in his arms.
                          
*****
                          
Aster's POV
                          
Liam did not try to refuse my kiss, but his eyes were not focused on me either. Although our lips were connected, our heart, mind and soul were not.
                          
His eyes followed Rush and Eva as they walked away from us. The bond that was supposed to be built between us through sex and marking, was not there. We were empty. 
                          
"Liam." I whispered to catch his attention.
                          
His sad eyes turned to me. I could not feel his pain, but I knew what he was feeling. What he was going through because I was going through the same thing. Same emptiness.
                          
"If you were not going to consummate our marriage, if you were not going to mark me as your Luna, then why did you even agree to marry me?"
                          
I saw him gulp and look away from me. But could not bear his aloofness anymore. There were just two options for him. Either accept me, or leave me. In either situation I was happy because then I would not have to face the wrath of my father. And then probably, I could run back to him.
                          
I grabbed his cheek and turned his face towards me so I could look into his eyes and figure out what he wanted. What kind of hell he was trying to dodge.
                          
"You are an Alpha now, Liam!" I tried to make him see the situation that we both were in, 
                          
"Officially you have got the title by marrying me. But you have to make love to me to receive the blessings of the moon goddess. You can not become the Alpha of our pack spiritually until to accept me as your wife. Our pack will not respect you as our Alpha if you do not create the sacred bond."
                          
"But that's the thing, Aster!" He gritted through clenched teeth and pulled his face out of my grasp while grabbing my arms to pull me smack against him, 
                          
"I have already created this bond with Eva! I have already marked her as my mate. My scent is still lingering on her body. My heart is still aching for her."
                          
His eyes were spitting fire but there was so much agony, so much turmoil in them, that I could not help but feel sorry. For him, and for myself. For what I was having to do and what I was going through.
                          
"Then you should not have married me, damn it!" I let out the fire that was burning me from so many days,
                          
"You should not have put yours and my life in so much confusion if you were not going to commit fully to it!"
                          
I stepped closer and slid my hand over his pants, to caress the massive bulge through his pants. His sexy breaths started to turn heavier with each stroke of my hand.
                          
If niceness was not going to work, I am going to use my powers to make him fuck me.
                          
Even if I have to cloud his vision and paint myself as Eva.