66. Bonding!!

                                    

                                          
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Ok.. Come to the story.. 
                          
Sriram pov. 
                          
"Yess... Swetha.. U can love me right.. U too can get a loving husband.. Like vaishali gets rakesh.. Right?? " i asked her. 
                          
"Sriram.. I cant love you.. I dont have any feelings for you.." swetha said shaking her head. 
                          
"Its okay swetha.. U might get those undermined feelings to resurface again." i said.
                          
"no.. Sriram.. I dont think so.. U know me.. I give value to marriage more." she said with stern voice.
                          
"but you are a divorcee now.. And just like you changed ur feelings about me after ur marriage.. Now that you are divorced, u can forget him too.. And me being ur past love, the feelings are easier to come out" i said looking in to her eyes.
                          
"no.. Sriram.. No.. still i love my husband.. My heart made a great bonding with him.. With you its just childish.. Teenage love.. With rakesh, even though the time i spent was just for 1 year and with you its many years.. But still i cant forget rakesh because marriage has a great bonding and my husband is not bad.. He loves me.. " swetha was saying what ever words that are coming in to her mind. 
                          
" once he gets married to vaishali, he will forget you right?? " i asked her straightly. 
                          
" yes.. " she replied. 
                          
" Then u too can forget him" i said as a matter of fact. 
                          
"no.. That wont happen.. Sorry sriram.. Please understand.. I cant love you.. I dont want to spoil your life.. Please dont accept for marriage.. Because u know me very well.." she started crying.
                          
"thats why iam saying swetha.. U can never be happy with out rakesh.." i said. 
                          
"sriram.." she looked at me with shock. 
                          
"yes swetha.. I do love you.. But my love is respect for you.. Iam ready to marry u at any time, if u want to.. But i know u wont.. I know u wont give divorce to ur husband even if he is a bad person.. You have that much patience.. But you giving divorce itself made me doubt about the reason behind.." i said. 
                          
No matter how much i love her to stay with me, she is not in love with me anymore.. I lost her love the moment i rejected her and left to pune. I was afraid that i might disclose my love for her. Now I lost her. But my love for her never dies.. It always want to see her happy. 
                          
"just like you.. May be rakesh too loves you only.. As per your description about rakesh.. He too wont marry vaishali.. I think u misunderstood rakesh and vaishali.." i said trying to clear her mind. 
                          
"i never doubted.." she said furrowing her brows. 
                          
"u do doubt their relationship.. Thats the main reason.. You are afraid that he might love vaishali again and leave you.. You know in this u got your father's genes.. Always thinking negatively" i chuckled. She looked down with guilt. 
                          
"think wisely swetha.. Its life.. Dont miss those who truly loves you with foolish thoughts.. If he do really loves you, its better for you to go back to him.. If he dont.. I will marry you no matter what.. I dont need physical relation.. We can live just as friends for life long.. Iam ready for that.. But i wont leave you alone in this world.. I can never be happy thinking that you can never be happy" i declared my decision. Enough is enough. These negative thoughts wont give peace at all.. Then her father's.. Now her's.