Happy New yearr / And happy birthday to me 😂✌
Ryan's POV
I had a dream
Maybe a nightmare ...
But it was beautiful , most of it was beautiful . He looked like an angel in disguise , no he was an angel . But then he disappeared and everything became ugly again . The colours drained , pastel colors turned into black ones , and again the hole in my heart expanded .
And here I am doing the same mistake I do every night without giving a care . It feels nice , the smell of it , the way it make my chest burn and my muscle twitch .
And then the best thing about it , was that it takes my mind of him . No it takes me right to him . I'd rather have the illusion of him over nothing .
It what's called the perfect match . More like heroin , ciggarets and alcohol .
Laying my back on the wall , I felt nothing , not weak not exhausted , I don't even feel broken anymore . I just feel nothing . Numb
And so in that exact moment , the door knob turned and someone entered . Not bothering to look , I knew who it was . Jack .
He have been doing this recently where he come and sleep in my apartment everyday . I know it's not just because 'he need to take care of me' but something bigger , but I was way too far to ask him what's wrong .
Jack looked at me for what felt like hours , but it was only seconds . Then he made his way to me , and sat on the floor , laying his back on the wall opposite to me .
The next thing he did shocked the hell out of me , he removed the ciggaret from my mouth and put it in his .
I didn't even question it .
and just waited for him to open up for me .
"We broke up"
Oh
"He said he think he's c-catching feelings for some one else , a-and need to make s-sure if he still l-loves me" He then took a deep breath and continued .
"Do you know h-how much it h-hurt to see him all in l-love with S-sonny " He finished with a shakey voice .
I'm sure I heard his voice crack , like a glass .
And for once I saw my best friend , with tears streaming down his cheeks .
Yep he was the one who told me a day ago 'I'm here no one would hurt you' when I was crying my eyes off . Tables really turn don't they .
And so I did the first thing that came to my mind . I pulled him by his wrist , and pulled him to my chest . And let him cry there .
I didn't tell him everything is gonna be okay , cuz I don't know if they'll be . No one knows .
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After hours of us laying on the floor , Jack fell asleep on my chest . I didn't mind it though , I knew he need it .
But then I felt vibrations , looking at my phone . It was ringing .
It wasn't there the surprise , I gladly picked the phone and hung up on the unknown number . But It ringed again , again and agian .
Picking the phone irritated , I didn't answer , I waited for the dork on the other line to say something .
And then to my surprise . A voice I didn't know I needed much said replied with a simple 'Ryan' .
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Yeah not that easy 😂✌
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Just keep scrolling 😂
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Father ?
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A/N : Is ThAt DaDdY ????
It's my birthday !!
I kinda feel nothing you know .
Like I'm getting older !!
I don't want that . The fuckkk .
So yeah I'm offically 14 , so I can stop lying and telling everyone that I'm 14 when I was 13 :))
Hehe
oiii and Happy new year 💛💛
May you have an amazing yearr
2020 here we gooooooooo
(P.S: I need to stop drinking energy drinks)
Every single one of you made my 2019 better okayyyyy 💛💛💛😂
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