Chapter 19 : Rumor has it

                                    

                                          
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Destiny Grey 
Some days I wish I could wake up and things were back to normal. I had to come face to face with my reality. I was technically a single woman but my heart was still with James Solomon. 
That sexy jerk cheated on me. I craved him. I missed him. 
It's been one month since we haven't spoken. He's tried to keep in contact with me. He still texts me every morning knowing that I may or may not reply. Which was sweet of him being the gentleman he is. 
He completely understands that space is what was needed for me to heal and focus on myself for a while.
I admit I was 
Heartbroken. 
Betrayed. 
But, I do believe that everyone deserves forgiveness. It's just it's not easy to do. 
I was shocked that he would do this to me. It took me so long to open up to him and then he gets weak and lets a female touch what's mine. 
Now, if I gave his pussy away he would be pissed. 
I can't lie I fell for him. 
I love him. 
So my feelings right now are all over the place. Sometimes I want to pick up the phone and call and ask him how his day was. 
I miss his smile; kissing his lips - His strong arms wrapped around me as I smell his scent on his neck and cuddle up. 
Most importantly James gave me head until I would tap out. 
 He was just the absolute best at it. damn. I sure needed some right now. 
I was stressed and horny. 
All the dreams I've had about him have been sexual. 
The wine was becoming my best friend. I was drinking a lot more I didn't go out much. I would just work my two jobs and come home. I think I was a little depressed. I hadn't posted on my social media page since the diamond ball. 
I also took off some of James' and my pics from my page. I just kept one just so folks couldn't make assumptions. While on his Instagram page, he had me all over it. He even still put me as his women's crush Wednesday recently. 
He knew what he was doing. 
James has a way of wooing me back. He sent me so many flowers I have a lot of them in my living room and kitchen. He sent them weekly. 
It was so cute and I was still mad at him. I would watch memories on my phone and smile then I would think about what he did and get mad all over again. 
This process wasn't easy. I missed him dearly. Apart from me, hated that this happened because we were in such a good place.