Chapter 13: A Mother's Guilt

                                    

                                          
(Summer's POV, The Fire)
                          
It was the middle of the night and a fire had suddenly broken out in our home. Me and Tai rushed to get Ruby and Yang out of the house while Ruby grabbed Zwei on our way out. When we were all outside we all sighed in relief and everyone turned back towards the house as I called for help on my scroll. After I called for help I looked at everyone and saw them all looking up at the house shocked and Ruby was even crying. Confused, I turned around to see what they were all looking at to see... my only son (Y/N), still inside, and on the second floor of the burning building. I couldn't move from the shock and terror of having left my only son in the burning house. My mind was telling me to hurry inside and try to get him out, but my body wasn't able to move, as if I was frozen in place. Suddenly I see him vanish from sight and I fall to my knees crying. It's all my fault my own son died. It then clicks in my head, today was his birthday. I start to cry worse and even fall to the ground. I can't believe myself. I cry myself to sleep, leaving Tai to carry me to a nearby town with an inn.
                          
(Still Summer's POV, 2 Years Later)
                          
It's been 2 years since my son died. I've quit my job as a huntress seeing as how I no longer feel worthy of the title. I wake up every morning just knowing that i'm a terrible person. It's my fault my son is dead and I have to live with the guilt of knowing that for a year I never looked at him lovingly. I really wish I could apologize to him, but it's impossible. We had our house rebuilt exactly the same and I spend most of my time in what would be (Y/N)'s room if he was still here. We decorated it like a normal child's room. I think if he was still here he'd love this. I could only find one photo of him, so I put it in a picture frame and put it in his room. Every morning I come in here and I lay on the floor hugging the photo while crying. Today however, I noticed a small journal on the ground in the room. I pick it up and open it to find out it's blank. I find a pen nearby and start to write in the journal 'I'm a horrible person. I deserve the worst punishment imaginable. I don't deserve to call him my son. It's all my fault he's dead. I killed him.' I write while starting to cry at the last line. I hide the journal under the bed's mattress before putting the picture back and exiting the room.
                          
(Still Summer's POV, After Uncertain)
                          
I was in (Y/N)'s room crying on his bed. We all finally had a chance to be a family again, but I ruined everything. He must hate me now. We spent all night bonding and building trust then I destroyed it all. I hope he's okay at least. I dig under the mattress and pull out my journal. 'He almost saw this.' I think to myself before opening it up and seeing everything written in it. I've written in here every thought i've had where I hate myself. Now I have some additions to make. I open up the journal and start to write. 'I ruined his happiness again. I destroyed my chances at forgiveness. I wanted my son back and I ruined everything. I'm a monster. I deserve whatever comes to me. I deserve to be hated by everyone I know and love.' I tear up as I write before writing my last thought. 'I deserve to die.' I write as my mental state plummets.
                          
(No One's POV)
                          
Summer slams her head up against the wall before bringing it back and repeating the action. She does this for a few minutes before slowly starting to slam harder. Eventually Tai comes in worried about what the sound is and sees blood dripping from his wife's forehead. He holds her back and prevents her from continuing as Summer starts to cry. Eventually Summer cries herself to sleep and Tai bandages up her head before calling a hospital. Eventually paramedics arrive and take Summer to the hospital.
                          
(Morning)
                          
Summer wakes up in a hospital bed. Her head is bandaged and she has a headache. Eventually a doctor comes in. "Ah, Mrs Rose. Glad to see you're awake." The Doctor says as he checks up on her. "Wh-what happened?" Summer asks confused. "Well, you started slamming your head against a wall until you bled and then your husband called to check you in here." The Doctor says explaining everything to her. Suddenly, Tai, Ruby, and Yang all come into the room. "Thank goodness you're okay." Tai says. "I'll leave you all alone so you can talk." The Doctor says. "Mom, why would you do that?" Ruby asks. "I... I deserved it... I ruined our chance at (Y/N) seeing us as family, I came up with the idea of abusing him, if I wasn't here none of this would have happened." Summer explains revealing her thoughts. Everyone looks at her surprised before they all hug her. "Summer, I still hope we have a chance with (Y/N), even if it is a small one. I know you feel guilty, but he's our son. He loves us and we love him." Tai says calming Summer down a bit. Something in Summer's head was telling her he just wants her to be happy, but the rest of her knows she'll never be forgiven for what she's done. Nonetheless she hugs everybody back while smiling.
                          
You guys wanna hear an interesting fact? I came up with the idea for this story while listening to Chlorine by Twenty One Pilots. I was really tired that night. Anyways, hope you guys enjoyed this chapter and i'll let you all move along now. Bye!
                          
Edit: I initially forgot to mention this, but i'm going to take a break from writing for a few days to figure out what I fully want to have happen for this story. I hope you can all understand and I hope you'll all enjoy what happens when I get back.
                          
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