*Amare's Dream*
"Wassup ma?" Matthew said.
"Hey." "I'm proud of you." "For what? Ian did none." "You did a lot within these two days.
I love you lil girl." I smiled.
"Do you really have to leave?" "Yup you may not understand now why everything happened the way it did but you will one day baby."
"Okay." He kissed my forehead.
A feeling I forgot existed. "Hey pretty girl. Stop acting like that Amare.
Yes I'm gone baby but a person never truly dies until they are forgotten. Don't forget me and never let Bre forget who her daddy is okay?"
"I could never do that. You came into my life when I needed somebody so bad.
You did what no man can say they can Matthew.
You wifed this bipolar maniac and you took care of me at my weakest I love you dude."
He smiled.
"How you feeling?" He asked me.
"Contempt with life." "You got this mama."
"Yeah. I know I do it's just gone be a lil harder without yo guide."
"See baby this is what's confusing you okay?
I'll forever be your guide and guardian angel just mentally. I can't have my soul roaming the earth or I can never be yo Angel okay?"
I nodded.
"The day you died what did you feel?" I asked him. "Nothing." "You was shot at least 5 times."
"Dying feels like resting.
My body was on this earth for 24 years baby so when I passed it felt relieved. I was okay with dying I knew it was coming so I didn't fight it I let God do his thing."
"But we could've saved you."
"No you couldn't have. Even if you did it would've been a war Amare.
As soon as I healed I would've went after them for hurting you and we both know how nasty it would've went from there.
Niggas don't care about shit out here.
They will target yo kids just to get you from hiding.
I've watched my homeboys get buried from that lifestyle and I've watched the same homeboys close casket doors on people they never could imagined.
It was either me or my babies.
I couldn't live with myself knowing you or my kids would've been gone because of me."
I wiped my tears.
"I understand. I love you so much."
"I love you way more."
He grabbed my hand and kissed me.
I deepened it. It was weird because when he kissed me I didn't receive the same sparks from when he was alive.
These sparks where different.
It was stronger than before. "Daddy?" We heard breaking the kiss.
It was Bre. "I forgot to mention to you I can do cross over dreams." He said laughing.
He picked her up and kissed her cheek.
Tears fell again.
"Don't cry mommy." Bre said.
