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"I know you'd be here"
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"I know you'd be here"
A calm and soft voice. The familiar voice that always make Jin feels calm. He turns his head towards the source of the voice.
"It's December honey, you should wear something warm"
A coat was draped on his back. His mother. His mother is here. If there is a word to describe what he feels right now, maybe 'numb' or 'empty' is right.
"What are you doing here? It's early" Jin asks as he buries his self into the warm coat his mother just covered him with
"She was my mother" she replies.
Was. He never thought that a word could hurt him like that. He obviously knew and aware of the situation but one thing he couldn't help but be hurt with it. The constant reminder that she left the world. The one thing he hate.
"I wanted to thanked her for giving birth to me. I wanted to thanked her because of that, I was able to become a mother of two sweet boys that I love the most. One is calm and one is bold"
He watch her every moves, hair softly move with the cold wind, he hears her every words
"I always thanked her on Seokjung's and your birthday but this year is a little bit different from the previous years" she says.
Jin remains silent, listening to her words.
"She always said the same thing every time I thanked her. You want to know what she said?" she calmly says, meeting her eyes with Jin's.
Jin nods a little.
"She said, as much as I needed her in my life, both of my boys are the same as well in no matter what situation it is"
It's true. A child need their parents the most.
"I know you are avoiding me, us. I couldn't blame you for that"
Jin wanted to slap his face. Jin wanted to kick himself for making his mother feel like that. What can he do ? What should he do? As much as Jin grew up, he is still a child to his mother. As much as he grew, he will always be her little baby, the little baby of the Kim's. He should make her feel that way.
A pair of hand cupped Jin's face. He looks at her eyes once again, noticing the unreadable things in it. Her hands despite the cold weather, despite not wearing any gloves is still warm. Her existence alone makes him feel calm at most.
"Thank you for not leaving me"
Jin knows well what her words mean. He really do.
"Thank you so much, I couldn't imagine losing you as well in my life, my precious little son. I have always love you"
He feels the same too. He do rather be dead than losing her in his life. He never imagine his life without her. Never because he can't live without her. He can't.
They always tell that a mom losing her child is the hardest thing but Jin always hope that he will be gone first before his mother. He is selfish, Jin knows he is selfish for that. The thought of her growing old, the thought of burying her always makes him feel he couldn't breath for life.
"I remember" is the only words that Jin says to her as his reply after a moment of cold silent.
"I'm so sorry. I wanted us to be a good parents to you but instead we hurt you the most"
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Valuable || Jin
Fanfiction[COMPLETED] In which, through all the incidents happened, they learnt how valuable they are, how valuable every one of them, especially their eldest hyung who they always take for granted. Involving in a car accident struck the realization in themse...
