Part 30

                                    

                                          
I know my heart didn't actually break, but when I heard those words come out of his mouth, my whole body felt like it was going collapse. Right now, I look into his deep, brown eyes and I see pure disgust, no trace of recognition anywhere. I am pretty sure someone out there is feeling the same way I am right now- the feeling of loving someone wholeheartedly and them not loving you back. It hurts. It really does, especially if they loved you once. 
                          
"A-akil... Please let me explain. Let me tell you why you're in the hospital at least. Let me tell you who I am." I ask, almost desperately. But, I am Kaaya. O-one who never backs down. 
                          
He cooly nods his head, still glaring at me. There is one thing that I am curious about, I am still his mate right. Shouldn't he still feel some sort of connection to me? 
                          
"Aakil...do you feel anything for me?" I ask softly, still praying that this is some kind of sick joke. We never even got to go on our date. 
                          
"SHUT UP. If you ask me anything about 'feelings for you' again, I will leave you alone." He snapped. I could feel my eyes water up, but I will them not water because I am Kaaya, one who never backs down. "You know what? You're crazy. I am going to call in the nurse just in case you try something fishy. The only reason why you're still here is because I need to know the full story of my accident." 
                          
My whole body is in pain, but it is incomparable to the pain in my heart at this moment. He pushes the button and nurse walks in. 
                          
Not my nurse, but another nurse walks in. She looks to be around late 40s to early 50s. I smile kindly at her which she returns, while Aakil just gives just gives an emotionless stare. 
                          
"Oh good! You're awake! It's a mirac-" She was interrupted by Aakil. 
                          
"Yeah, yeah. Got it. So, could you just stand there and make sure this psycho doesn't go all crazy on me. I still don't know if I should trust her." He says rudely. I gasp. He wasn't this rude to anyone before. What's wrong with him? I feel bad for the poor nurse. 
                          
I gulp when I see Aakil looking at me expectantly. "So we got into the accident when we were riding on a motorcycle together. My scarf started to fly away so you went to go get it. I started falling off, you caught me, but then we crashed due to the lack of control." I try not to include any emotions in my brief summary, just facts. I look over to Aakil, apprehensive of his reaction. 
                          
A few moments pass and Aakil starts laughing. When he's done, he continues his cold glare at me. "Are you stupid? Who the f*ck would believe that trash? Why would anyone go out with you anyway? You know what, f*ck off. You crazy b*tch." My eyes widen. He never cursed at me before. The one person who gave me confiedence and made me live up to my full potential just called me a crazy b*tch. No Kaaya, don't back down now. You are someone who doesn't back down...tears start to prick my eyes and I look away away from the new face I don't recognize
                          
The nurse looks horrified at Aakil. "I-i. I will be right back." She hurriedly leaves the room, probably thinking that we are going through some ugly breakup now. I follow her silently in my wheelchair which Aakil didn't even notice. I wheel myself (painfully) back to my room. I close my eyes and try to process what just happened. 
                          
"Kaaya, is that you?" I hear a familiar voice call out of my name. I look behind me and see Drika and Jay, Aakil sister and brother. 
                          
"Hi guys. What's up?" Drika looks at me in disbelief and runs to hug me. "AH!!!" I scream in agony. "Sorry!" She says hurriedly. Jays runs to me as well, but he ends up hugging my arm in order to not hurt me. 
                          
"Did you guys see Aakil yet?" I ask them, curious. 
                          
"Phsshh...who cares about that idiot. He is probably fine." Drika rolls her eyes and Jay starts to giggle a bit. I could feel my eyes watering up a bit. Probably fine. How about probably not? 
                          
"Omg. Kaaya, why are you tearing up? Did I say something wrong? I shouldn't have said anything, you probably miss each oth-" She babbles. 
                          
"Aakil forgot about me. I think he lost his memory." Drika gasps and her eyes widen. Jay looks angry. 
                          
"I am going to make my brother like you again! You're my sister in law, he has to like you!" Jays tells me as he runs out of the room. 
                          
Drika says comforting words, but I can't bring myself to listen to them. A few minutes later, she walks out of my room. I don't know where she heading through. I look out the window, it looks like it is about to rain with the dark clouds up above. 
                          
Rain brings back so many memories with someone. I am about to smile, but I stop myself. 
                          
What does it matter if the other person doesn't remember the memories..it might as well just be a dream. I close my eyes. 
                          
"Kaaya, sweetheart, don't back down. Even though you can't ride your bicycle, it is important to never back down." I listen to my dad's encouraging voice trying to motivate 6 year old me. "There are going to be some challenges and hardships throughout your whole life. Don't back down and eventually you will become a stronger person." 
                          
I open my eyes looking at the heavy rain falling down my window. They look like tears. I touch the window. I touch my cheek. It's dry. They are not my tears though. 
                          
I won't back down. Watch me.