Part three Liam's perspective

                                    

                                          
The bed is so cozy and comfy and-"Help meeeeeeee! Please, Liammmmmm!" I hear Shelby scream. "Don't hurt me again! I will come back to you if you want just please don't hurt me again!" She is screaming even louder. I run into her room practically breaking down the door, thank God she is just having a nightmare still though I need to help her. I start shaking her to wake her up, I know that it's bad to wake someone up when they are having this kind of nightmare but she needs to wake up before it hurts her too much. She wakes up and just grabs onto me while she sobs. "Hey, you are okay alright? I am here and I will keep you safe okay? I just need you to match my breathing, okay? In for four, hold for seven, out for eight. Let's do this together okay?" Her head is resting on my chest which makes it easier for her to match my breathing so she can calm down.
                          
Once she is calm we can finally talk about what happened, though I tread lightly. "What happened in your dream?" I ask her gently. "H-he came back and killed you and he wanted to hurt me, it was so bad and nobody could protect me. And Liam, can you teach me how to defend myself?" She says starting to shake even more. "He is never going to hurt you again Shelby, I promise I will protect you and keep you safe. But if you want me to I will teach you how to protect yourself, we can start tomorrow if you want okay but for now, you need to sleep tonight." I say stroking her hair to keep her calm. "Can you stay with me, please?" She asks quietly. "I wasn't planning on leaving you even for a second," I say as we lay down on the bed and she snuggles up to me still shaking. This would be weird with anyone else but she is pretty much my little sister and I feel the need to protect her. I wait until she is fast asleep before I let myself go to sleep too even though it is difficult with her nails digging into my skin I am pretty used to this.
                          
When I wake up she is still sleeping next to me and is holding me closely and using my chest as a pillow. If it wasn't for the fact that she would kill me I would totally photograph this and send it to Will and Graser to confuse them, maybe I will take a photo anyway just because this is really funny considering how we view each other and I just realized that I am shirtless since I went to bed shirtless. It looks kinda like we had sex which would never happen for so many reasons. 
                          
She starts stirring and soon wakes up. "Oh God, I am so sorry Liam!" She says pushing away from me. "It's okay, now that you are awake I want you to go sit on the couch and turn on some cartoons so I can start breakfast for us," I say smiling at her, and we both go out.
                          
I decide to make big fluffy waffles with homemade whipped cream, fresh fruit, bacon and home fries(pan-fried potato chunks and they are truly amazing). They make the perfect comfort breakfast for her and that combined with cartoons on the couch and a giant mug of hot chocolate with more whipped cream, marshmallows and sprinkles should calm her down plenty plus she will just love the combination.
                          
I hand her a plate and sit down with her and on the couch when I notice Link laying on her feet. "Here you go Shubbs, just don't feed Link any," I say with a chuckle. "I won't and thanks for last night Liam you really did help me." She says after a minute. "Anytime and if you don't want to meet Parker or if you want to stay home and not go to the meetup that's fine. If you want to go home after we get there we can leave, whatever you need we can do okay? Just say it and we can do whatever and I won't ask for your reasons." I tell her calmly, making sure she can see I won't be mad no matter what we do. "I will go and try to meet him but I am going to need you with me and I am definitely going to need some self-defence training." She says quietly between bites. "Okay once breakfast is done we can start training and we are rooming together I got confirmation on that this morning. We finish our breakfast after that quietly as we watch our cartoons.
                          
"Now Shelby you are tiny and that is both an advantage and a disadvantage for you. You are much harder to hit because of your size however you don't have much muscle on you so you need to fight with brains over brawn. You will probably want to know how to fight against people like me with more muscle though which is good for us." I say as we stand in our living room in our work out gear. (Link is in his kennel so he doesn't get hurt) "Okay, so how would I beat someone like you in a fight?" She asks me. "You need to hit with things like your elbows and knees and use your hands to protect your face like this." I bring her hands up in front of her face and help her get into a combat-ready stance. "Okay, so where should I hit on somebody who is so much bigger than me?" She asks sounding a little bit braver. "Well in the face hitting the nose, eyes and ears is always a good option. The throat, knees and genitals are good spots to aim for too." 
                          
I tell her and she visibly starts getting anxious. "Hey we don't have to do this right now we can work on it later but if you need us to stop that's okay, you don't need to learn any of this right now because I won't leave you for long enough for you to get hurt by anyone okay? I will always protect you I promise." I tell her and she just falls into my arms and starts crying lightly. "I'm sorry Liam." She says sniffling. "Hey don't apologize, you are doing just fine and you don't need to worry. You are perfectly safe with me and you never need to apologize to me for feeling things." I say to her, pulling her into my chest and stroking her hair. "Thank you, Liam. Thank you for everything you do for me." She says as she cries into my chest. "Stop thanking me, you are pretty much my little sister which means I will always protect you no matter what." I pull out a little rectangular box that I had in my pocket and hand it to her. "What's this?" She asks puzzled. "A present dumbass," I say laughing a fair amount. She opens it and finds a fancy pocket knife. "It is for protection but it also has an S.O.S button that you can press if you need me and it will send me your location if for some reason I am not with you. A knife is always handy in a fight and it will definitely help without needing a ton of muscle." I explain to her. 
                          
"Thanks, Liam. And wait if I am your little sister does that mean I can call you big bro to confuse our friends?" She asks cheekily. "Hell yeah, I am pretty sure Graser would explode and I have an idea that if you let me that would make it 1000 times better. I took a photo of you sleeping on my chest because it was funny to me considering how I feel about you, if I sent it to him without context the big bro thing would probably make him burst into flames." I say while failing to contain my laughter. 
                          
"That's fine but you are explaining after. And don't tell them about my anxiety okay? It was just a nightmare. Nothing more, it was just a bad nightmare and I fell asleep on you after I calmed down." She says starting to ramble and get anxious again. "Hey, hey. Nobody will know unless you tell them, okay? I swear to you that I will never tell anyone unless you ask me to." I tell her holding her closer to me and taking deep breaths so she will start too as well. "Thanks, I love you fake big bro." She says smiling as her breathing calms. "Love you too fake lil sis," I tell her gently. Because I do love her as my little sister and as my friend but not in a romantic sense because I am pretty damn gay.
                          
Sometimes Shelby and I will act like teenage girls and watch chick flicks and gawk at photos of hot guys. She is the only person I have ever told about me being gay and she has always been really chill about it. She is also the only person who knows how hard I am crushing on Graser, like seriously I don't think that he knows how fucking hot he is. 
                          
I decide to start packing for both of us since we are just planning on driving to the hotel. I put together a special backpack with stress relievers for her. It has fidget toys, hot chocolate mix with marshmallows in a jar, chocolate, a fuzzy blanket, a teddy bear, and a weighted blanket as they can all be good at calming her. Then I put together a suitcase for myself with my clothes, toiletries, some pyjama pants and emergency chloroform either to knock her out if her panic attacks get too dangerous, or if I get too protective and she thinks I am way too dangerous. Then the snack bag, there will probably be a lot of traffic so we will be driving for a few hours so I pack tons of snacks and treats including water bottles.
                          
We end up agreeing that I am going to stay with her tonight in case she has another nightmare, that way I can calm her down faster. And bonus her bed is way comfier. Since I am actually planning on staying in her bed tonight I throw on a shirt just so it is a little less awkward. I can't do much right now but if this makes her feel better then I am happy to do it. Plus it gives me more time to figure out if it is a compliment or an insult that I make a good pillow, that and Twinker-bell she really does have weird compliments that are also insults. They don't bug me, mostly I am just confused by them.
                          
She is so peaceful when she sleeps and isn't having nightmares, and to be honest even though she doesn't see it she is a badass for keeping on functioning even with everything that happens in her brain. And it makes it so much easier to sleep knowing that she is calm for a change and that she is in the one place where she is almost always happy and where she can be in control of everything. After everything she has been through, she deserves the entire world to work like that, but it doesn't so I will just try to make her life as easy as possible. 
                          
I really hope she and Parker get along because I love them both so much and it would kill me if they hated each other. Even after what Graser promised me, I worry like crazy about it. I just don't want to lose either of them. But I know that if something goes wrong I am going to have to choose one of them and since her anxiety is so bad I will probably choose Shelby and that would kill me. I don't want to lose my best friend but I am too protective over Shelby so for his sake I hope he doesn't hurt her.