Chapter 5 ~the new concern~

                                    

                                          
lisanna finally stopped and smirked at me, "next time i won't stop, slut. stay away from me. you should just kill yourself." i just laid on the floor in too much pain to move. she had made bruises all over my stomach, they were all a sickly green color. "LUCY!! OH MY GOD LUCY!" i looked up to see natsu running over to me, "oh hey natsu. you okay?" i asked weakly, forcing myself to sit up. natsu stopped in front of me and had tears in his eyes. "lucy.. oh my god. i can't believe i didn't help you in time, i wasn't here to save yo-" natsu kept rambling on "shhhhh." i cut him off, putting s finger to his lips. "don't worry about me. if you really are beating yourself up over this, just remember your here now. that's enough for me." i said in a cheerful voice. i gave him a big hug and let him cry into my shoulder, he kept crying "i'm so sorry." 
                          
he finally broke away and started deep into my eyes. i found my heart beating faster as i lost myself in his onyx eyes. he was showing obvious concern and sadness. "luce, what happened to you?" he whispered. i smiled and replied "i'm okay. i just fell down." i knew i wasn't supposed to lie but i didn't want to concern natsu about someone like me. after all he deserves the best, and i'm not that. besides at least i wasn't killed. he knew i lied and whispered huskily in my ear "lucy. tell me what really happened." i kept thinking, 'why does he care?' i couldn't bring myself to tell him. i just whispered and showed a weird kind of sadness, which i've never shown out loud before. "natsu don't you worry about me. i'm not worth it." with those words i sat up and walked away. 
                          
i could feel his stare in my back. 'LUCY YOU BAKA! YOUR SUPPOSED TO BE HAPPY' i thought to myself as i walked to my locker to pack up for home. why did i even show my sadness? there goes my good impression on natsu... damn it. 
                          
as i finished packing up for home, my stomach hurt worse than usual. i knew lisannas punching had a bigger effect then i thought. i frowned to myself, 'great. more to fix up at home.' "heya luce. why are you frowning?" my scarlett haired bestie asked me. i laughed and replied "oh it's nothing. just some homework thoughts." now it was erzas turn to frown, "speaking of homework, here's your homework from 5th 6th and 7th. where did you go at lunch?" my eyes grew wide, i couldn't tell her! "oh nothing. i just felt sick so i camped out in the bathroom." i replied, trying to sound as nonchalant as i can. luckily it worked on erza, unlike natsu earlier. "good. i thought something bad had happened. anyway i gotta go. see you tomorrow lucy!" erza said while running to her bus. "bye!" i yelled back, smiling. i'm happy at least someone cares about me. that's a first. 
                          
i walked home as slowly as i could, i was in no rush to see my father. just the thought of more pain makes me want to cry, but i can't cry. i should be grateful for what i have.. so why am i feeling so ungrateful. i just sound spoiled now. i was lost in thought and i ran into something, or more specifically someone. "oh hey natsu!" i said as my eyes saw who was in front of me. "hey lucy!" he replied, his face turning red . it was hot outside so i don't blame him for being hot. "whatcha doin?" i asked curiously as i noticed he was shifting from foot to foot nervously. "o-oh n-nothing." he replied. "want me to take you home?" "yeah i'd love that" i replied back to him. and so me and natsu set off towards my house together. my heart was beating fast, but i didn't know why. what was this feeling?