Tuesday, January 1st, 2013
1:55 a.m.
I yawned and began pulling on my pajamas and taking off my contacts. I was completely exhausted. The bonfire had been fun...before Jesse came along. After that all I could do was worry. I climbed into bed and squeezed my eyes shut, praying for a few hours of sleep at least. Suddenly, I heard a soft tapping on my window. My heart dropped. Justin? Maybe I was just imagining it. Nope, there it was again. I opened my eyes and stood up, walking over to my window to find Justin perched on the branch outside of my window. Maybe I was dreaming. I opened the window and watched as he climbed in.
"Happy New Years!" he said, hugging me tightly and pulling me off of my feet. He put me down and pulled me close, kissing me for what felt like forever. I finally pulled away and stared at him in disbelief. Yup..this was definitely a dream.
"What's wrong?" he asked me, pulling my chin up so that I was looking at him. Well..might as well practice what I was gonna say. I sat on my bed and looked at the floor again.
"I'm breaking up with you" I said not making eye-contact with him.
"Wait what?" he asked in disbelief. I looked up at him and rubbed my tired eyes. "Oh I get it" he said, his serious face turning relieved. "This is payback for the whole vampire garlic thing" he said laughing.
"No Justin..I'm being serious" I said crinkling my eyebrows together.
"What?" he asked in shock, sitting beside me.
"Sorry" I said shrugging.
"Why? What did I do?" he asked. Poor guy, already blaming himself..Well I guess I kinda had gotten him to do that automatically.
"Nothing" I said quickly. "It's me" I said. He looked at me expectantly.
"Are you moving or something?" he asked me.
"No..it's just that..when you left..I didn't miss you" I lied. Maybe that's what I needed to do when this really happened. Lie.
"Woah what?" he asked me in disbelief.
"I mean...I think I only love you as a habit..maybe I did love you at some point..it just died out" I said awkwardly. Yeah..I was not doing this in real life. Let Olivia come after me. It's much less torturous than this.
"Oh" Justin said. "Well just to let you know..I came home early just for you..and you didn't leave my mind one second of that trip" he said sweetly. I stared into his eyes and realized he was telling the truth. I wanted to kiss him so badly. This was only a dream right? Well...might as well take advantage of this moment. I leaned forward and felt his lips meet mine.
"I love you" Justin whispered as he pulled his lips away from mine.
"I'm sorry" I said shaking my head and looking at the floor. "You should go now" I said. I walked over to the window and began pulling it open when I suddenly heard a loud shatter. I gasped, feeling a sharp pain in my arm and looked down to see that a piece of glass was sticking out of my arm and blood was pouring out. I looked at Justin and saw that he was pressed against my closet door, trying to be as far away from me as possible. He quickly looked at my bedroom door and turned to look at me again.
"I'm sorry" he mouthed and climbed out the window in an instant. I looked back at the door and saw that my parents came bursting in, concerned looks on their faces. Well great.
