Chapter 33

                                    

                                          
(June 5, 2001)
                          
•HARLOW'S POV•
                          
I've just finished getting ready, Shay's on her way over she's picking me up and then we're heading to the airport to pick up Cole. I would be lying if I said I wasn't the slightest bit nervous after everything Shay had told me about what Cole told her. The truth is I don't know what it is I want from Cole, I don't want to use him as a rebound and have Shay getting caught up in the middle of it. I know she would be upset with me if I ended up hurting him. I know I would be pissed if the tables were turned and she hurt Fred. Although that seems almost impossible, Mister don't give a fuck would have to have a heart for women, which he seems not to have. I know he cares for Shay cuz I can see that shit, he's just different with her. I know our mom did a number on him though and now he keeps it going as far as women are concerned, never really slowing down enough to develop real feelings. 
                          
Hmm... actually that sounds a lot like someone else I know, knew...
                          
Ugh... Come on Harlow you've been doing great! 
                          
I find myself still reminding myself that Em is part of my past. I need to change my thought process. 
                          
I can't wait to see Tilly later, she's meeting up with us at Heat, it's a newer night club. Shay knew without asking I wouldn't want to go to Spacebound again so she set up a VIP booth at Heat, we have all been wanting to go an check it out so now we get to. My phone goes off just as I put the final touches on my eyeliner, I walk over grabbing it off my dresser. 
                          
From Shay:
                          
I'm outside!
U ready?
                          
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To Shay:
                          
Ya be out soon!
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I spray on my perfume, grab my purse and head out the door, only to forget I didn't leave Fred a note. I hold up my finger to Shay as I run back into the house and over to the fridge writing down where I'm going.
                          
Finally I get outside and get situated in Shay's little eclipse, she already has the radio on. 
                          
"Hey, what did you forget?" She questions why I ran back into the house.
                          
"Oh uh I forgot to leave Fred a note!" 
                          
"Oh right, he would of came home pissed and probably a little worried if you weren't here huh?"
                          
"You already know how he is, but it isn't so much he would be pissed as much as he would be worried and blowing up my phone. We have always done that, I worry too when he doesn't tell me where he is and forgets to put it on the fridge."
                          
"I know, it's admirable really, that you both care... I think it would be nice knowing someone cares where I am, or if I'm ok you know?" 
                          
"Hey! I care if you are ok!" 
                          
She laughs, "you know what I mean Har!"
                          
"Yeah I know." 
                          
"So are you a little nervous for this? It's ok you can tell me!" She laughs again.
                          
"I mean a little just because of what you told me last week." 
                          
"Yeah, I figured you would be, but don't let it change anything, let's just go out tonight and whatever happens, happens. No pressure, just a laid back kind of night." 
                          
"Yeah easy for you to say!" I laugh as all of the air suddenly gets sucked out of the car when the announcer on the radio brings up D12." Shay and I both glance at each other for a moment before she returns her focus back to the road. I reach for the knob turning it up.