19- Human

                                    

                                          
{ chapter dedicated to maddieisniallaf , bc ily my soulmate 💀❤️.. }
                          
{ song for this chapter is human by christina perri bc im only human.. }

                          
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{ this is the worst poem i've ever wrote tbh }
                          
a white feather
                          
blue, clear sky
                          
girls looked sadder
                          
and you were smiling up high
                          
up on the playhouse
                          
you used to laugh
                          
you furrow your eyebrows
                          
and i knew you have
                          
that aura that used to
                          
grip my attention
                          
and as we grew up, myself and you
                          
you were the one always in detention
                          
i was the nerd
                          
i was that guy
                          
haven't you heard?
                          
but with a no you sigh
                          
years passed by,
                          
some already have said their farewell
                          
can't you say goodbye?
                          
but it was saved once by the bell
                          
hours turned into days
                          
and you finally did go
                          
and it was a paper that says
                          
'i'm so sorry but you don't know..'
                          
i knew very well what life was for you
                          
but have you thought about me?
                          
it's hard to know that you too
                          
haven't stayed under that tree
                          
one day, you'll find out
                          
that i fell for you
                          
and don't you shout
                          
i'm a heart beat through
                          
goodnight now
                          
it's goodbye
                          
don't ask how
                          
just know i'm up high..
                          
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"So you're a ghost..?" Louis asked, voice calm as I told him everything. His head on my chest, increasing my heart beat as he traced his finger in circles, laughing if I said something funny, his intoxicated laugh vibrated through my chest, catching the air in my throat as I came to realization that I'm here, and he's here too. And I can actually say, our love is not inventible. I guess our love don't really exist amongst us. It comes naturally.
                          
"I was a ghost. Suggestively, my secret guard actually gave me 30 days to make things right.." I trailed off, making his lips twitch into a frown.
                          
"What do you mean just 30 days..?" He asked warily, his chin on my chest as our eyes locked. Staring in those sea blue irises, I knew my life was finally complete. I kept staring into his eyes before I grinned, brushing his fringe away from his eye sight, causing the smaller boy to blush slightly, breaking the gaze as he looked away.