16

                                    

                                          
Chris called me while I was at work. He stayed home to make sure the installation of all cameras were done correctly. "They look great, not too bulky babe." 
                          
I didn't want the cameras to look like cameras because that would freak the shit out of guest. "That's great baby! Listen I have a patient, call you later?"
                          
"Yeah call me later Babydoll. I hope you're taking into consideration what we talked about. Love you bye."
                          
I told him I loved him and then hung up. My computer displayed ways to use a psychology degree. I was truly thinking about leaving but if I left i would feel like all my hard work in college would be for nothing. I had a PhD for crying out loud. 
                          
"Don't over think it." My moms words rung in my head. She thought it was a good idea to take a break as well, but she almost always agreed with Chris. 
                          
I pondered on the subject until my patient came in. I was praying for someone to give me a sign. 
                          
My patient was a young man dealing with depression and anxiety. A common mental illness combination. I listen and I give the best that I can to try to help because no one needs to go through stuff alone. 
                          
After my session with my patient I went next door to Dani's office and knocked on her door. "Come on in." She called and I opened the door. "Hey what's up!"
                          
I shrugged. "I don't know what to do any more Dani..." I plopped down on her couch. "I don't want to leave but..."
                          
"But you have a feeling you should." She finished for me. I nodded. "Well I really can't really make that decision for you, but I've found that whenever I'm in a tough situation the universe always seems to give me the right answer." 
                          
I took in her advise and pondered on it for a minute. "I don't want to leave you alone? People aren't so nice on this floor." I smiled. 
                          
Dani laughed and waved it off. "That's the thing... I'm trying to get my own place so I can stop renting out this one." She looked at all the grey painted walls. "Plus this place is kinda shitty." She joked and we laughed. 
                          
Talking to her could really give me a sense of knowing what was going on and how to fix things that were broken. I feel I could always talk to her. "Thanks for being my friend, I know I suck at it." 
                          
"No problem and you don't suck at it, you're just afraid of letting people in." 
                          
"Wow thanks Dr. Anderson." She chuckled and rolled her eyes. 
                          
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"Chris I'm home!" I yelled once I got through the door. I plopped my keys in the tray and kicked off my heels. The smell of steak smelled up the kitchen all the way to the living room. "Baby it smells great in here." My stomach growled a little. "And I'm hungry..." I started towards the kitchen when I didn't hear him. 
                          
My mouth dropped when I saw what he was doing. "Shit doll you weren't supposed to see it yet!" Chris tried to cover up the scene. It was a candle light dinner table set up with roses and champagne. "It was supposed to be a surprise!" He whined. 
                          
I giggled and made my way to him. "Surprise or not I love it." I wrapped my arms around his neck. "And I love you." I leaned up to kiss him. He tasted like my favorite taste. He smelled intoxicating and I could never get enough.
                          
"The veggies aren't done yet so..." He pulled away. "Alexa play a slow song." He commanded the machine. Ocean Eyes by Billie Eilish started playing and Chris pulled me to him in a slow dance. 
                          
I hummed and laid my head on his chest. He was wearing a white button down and some black slacks. "This song reminds me of you." I whispered as we rocked softly together. Connected everywhere. "Because every time I look into those ocean blue eyes I fall more and more in love with you." I looked up at him. 
                          
Chris looked down at me with a small smile on his lips. "I love you doll." He kissed my nose and then placed a kiss on my lips. His beard tickling my face a little. 
                          
After dinner Chris treated me to a long drawn out bath. I laid back on his chest as he massaged my body with his large hands. I moaned when his hand slipped down lower. "Baby..." I gasped out with a short laugh. Chris chuckled and kissed along my neck. "Mmm- oh my- Chris!" I gripped his wrist under the water. My eyes rolled back and my head went along. "Chris! Baby- fuck- I'm almost there." I reached my right hand up to tug on his soft locks. My hips bucked wildly in the tub and water splashed out. "Shit!" I cursed with a laugh. My chest heaved from one of the most intense fingerings. 
                          
"Round two in the bedroom doll." Chris grinned against my ear. His laugh making me swoon. 
                          
I nodded in a daze. Soon we were out of the tub and Chris was drying us both off. We brushed our teeth together with our robes on. Champagne was the drink of the night. The both of us already having 2 glasses and we were bubbly. 
                          
I giggled. A blush forming on my cheeks when Chris gently sat me on our king sized bed. He slowly unraveled my robe. His own getting shoved off when he straddled my legs. When he entered me his head plopped down on my collarbone. His strokes were gentle and our hands intertwined together. I looked up to see the sparkling blue eyes I was so in love with. Every jolt of his hips made a sound come out. The soft slap of his pelvis hitting mine was just a mix in the music of love making. Chris sped his hips up a bit and moved his head so he could kiss me better. "Are you there babe?" He whispered. His eyes were closed in pleasure. I lifted his face so I could see him. It was blissfully entertaining to see him fall apart. His breath moan almost sounding like a whine. 
                          
It was weird because in the moment I thought of Matt and how he could never show me the love Chris could. It was just fucking with no feelings while Chris made sweet love and always showed me he loved me. It made me think that it was time to finally let the past with Matt go and to embrace the future with Chris. How much I wanted to tell him about what the future has in store for us. How I wanted to have his children and be the best wife. 
                          
"What's going through that pretty head of yours?" Chris mumbled in my neck. He moved over and laid on his side facing me. His fingers drawing shapes on my stomach. 
                          
"Hmm nothing just how amazing you are." I pulled the covers up over us and turned to face him. "And I was thinking about taking a break from work, focusing on finding a hobby and getting myself to where I need to be."
                          
Even through exhaustion Chris smiled and gave me a quick kiss. "I'm so proud of you doll." 
                          
I grinned and cuddled up next to him. He was my thought as I drifted to sleep.