Part 22

                                    

                                          
"He is coming back, don't worry" Sam says and I nod. Jody gets up and sits next to me. "Until then we are here" she says and I nod. "Well, I found out that my dad gave me to them in the first place because I reminded him of my mom, despite the fact that he was cheating on her". "Now excuse me but I need to go and get some sleep" I say and I leave the library.
                          
I lay on my bed and I am just staring at the ceiling. But I can't calm down. I get up and I go to the bathroom. I look myself in the mirror. 
                          
How did I get here? How did I became such a mess? I worth to stay alone. And if Dean goes and drinks and gets laid tonight, I'm not going to be mad. Because I worth it. Because I am a mess. I am a broken mess. I'm sure that he can find better. How did he even stayed with me this long? I mean look at me.
                          
Tears are streaming down my face and I look even worse. I close my eyes and I take a deep breath but it doesn't seem like it helps. I punch the mirror over and over again until the little pieces fall off. I stop and I look at the sink and my tears fall on the mirror's broken pieces. I finally break down.
                          
Dean's POV
"Hey, were have you been?" Sam asks me as I walk down the stairs "We'll talk later. Cas located Lusifer, we better leave today. Be in the car in 5" I say and walk to my room. A loud noise from the bathroom makes me stop. Like someone is breaking glass. But it stopped after a few seconds. I open the door and I see (Y/N) crying.
                          
Your POV
Someone opens the door and I turn to look that it's Dean. "What's wrong baby?" he asks "I'm so sorry that I didn't tell you anything about me being pregnant but what was I supposed to say?" "It's ok, I get it. I just needed some time to process, not just that but everything you said" he says and hugs me. "I'm a mess Dean. Why are you still with me? I can't even recognise who she is *point at the broken mirror*". Dean cups my face "She is the strongest and most beautiful woman I have ever met. She is the woman that is there for me and deals with my crap. She is the woman that I'm in love with. And, sometimes, she just needs me to remind her of that, which, to be honest, it seems like I am doing a pretty bad job at. Right now, she is just going through something and I'm sure that she will be back even stronger. I love you (Y/N) (Y/L/N)" he says and kisses me. "You mean the world to me (Y/N). And I'm sorry that I haven't told you that enough" "You know that we are probably the two most screwed up people in this planet" "Yeah, but this might be the magic in our relationship" he says and leans again for a kiss. It was a slow and passionate kiss that none of us wanted to end.
                          
"Get a room you two" I hear Claire say but Dean doesn't seem to care. So I pull away and I look at her. And then I notice Jody and Sam standing behind Claire, smiling. Dean turns his head and looks at them. He looks back to me "Cas located Lusifer which means--" "That you need to leave" "Yeah". I give him a quick kiss "Let's go and get your stuff ready" I say and take him to our room. "I'm leaving you to get ready, I'll be in the kitchen" I say and leave him alone in the room.
                          
Sam was already sitting in the kitchen. "How are you (Y/N)?" he asks me "I'm going to be fine" I say and I am smile. I take a beer from the fridge and I lay against the counter. Jody and Alex come in the kitchen too. "Everything ok?" Jody asks "Yeah" I say and she walks towards me and Alex sits down across from Sam. Then Dean comes in "Ready?" he says looking Sam and Sam nods. Dean walks to me and hugs me "Be careful" "I will" he says and pulls away. He takes a sip of my beer "Hey" I say and he gives me a quick kiss "See you later" he says and walks away. "I'll stay here until you come back, to make sure she is doing ok" Jody says "Thanks. Let's go Sammy" and with that they left. 
                          
"I'm going to check on Claire and I'm coming back to make dinner" Jody says and leaves the kitchen.