이달의 소녀

                                    

                                          
Hi High concept
                          
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"So guys, divide into two groups and don't go up the diving board!" Haseul unnie shouted, I went with Sooyoung unnie and we were walking around at the forest
                          
"So.." Sooyoung unnie spoke up, "I heard you and Chaewon aren't in a good situation at the moment..." she continued, "Because she confessed to you and you rejected her."
"Yeah..." I said rather slowly than usual,
"Tell me what happened." she said, I told her everything that happened
                          
"So...you guys like each other, but you couldn't say yes because you're having trouble with finding the right place to be in because you feel like you're in circles." she repeated,
"Yeah."
"So basically, you want to say yes but because of your depression and anxiety you just can't." she said, trying to fix everything as much as possible,
"Yeah." I said, eyeing the diving board, "Haseul unnie said we're not allowed to go up to the diving board, but...can I just go up there? I won't jump..." I thought, "Unnie...can I go up the diving board? I promise I won't jump off." I said, crossing my fingers behind me so the promise isn't a stable one,
"Okay but make sure you keep your promise." she said,
"I will." I lied, we walked closer to the empty swimming pool
                          
Sooyoung unnie opened the unlocked gate and I went straight to the diving board, Sooyoung unnie went inside the empty swimming pool, "Becareful Hyejoo." she said,
"I will." I climbed up until I reached the top and stood up, I looked down to see Sooyoung unnie waving at me, I smiled at her and she smiled back at me
                          
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Me and Jiwoo unnie were just walking around the woods and I got the idea of looking at the empty swimming pool, "Unnie can we see the empty swimming pool? I wanna see how many dirt and plants there are." I asked,
"Sure." she answered with a smile, as we were on our way, I opened the gate and saw two familiar looking girls, one on top of the diving board and one inside the swimming pool
                          
And that's when it hit me, "Unnie...isn't that Hyejoo?" I asked her whilst pointing up at the diving board,
"That is!" she gasped, I noticed the smile she has plastered on her face, I'm terrified and scared, everything is shaking, my heart is beating too fast, "Don't jump."
                          
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I found the right timing, I'm going to jump but that's when I heard the sound of someone shouting, "SON HYEJOO!!!" I heard, "SON HYEJOO GET DOWN FROM THERE NOW!!!" I heard another, I looked at the bottom to see Chaewon unnie, eyes watery like she's about to cry, the sound of desperation in her voice and the bad feeling in my stomach is a pain
                          
"I'm sorry Chaewon unnie..."




















                          
"This is for my own good."























                          
Then it all went black, I hear sirens, crying and other things...










                          
I found out nothing can make me happy










                          

















                          
not even one of my friends









                          





















                          
especially Chaewon unnie










                          





















                          
I'm nothing but no one















                          
I















                          
just











                          



                          
commit














                          






                          
Suicide.