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Dear J,
These weeks I've been feeling better and I rarely missed you I think it's been 3 months since I last wrote you. 
                          
But...
                          
I saw you today, you looked handsome as always and you said hi and even gave me a hug. God you shouldn't have done that. Your scent is intoxicating to me and now here I am crying my eyes out because of you! Seeing you broke my heart I wanted to hold on to you like I was holding on to my life. I didn't wanna let you leave, but you're not mine anymore. 
                          
Fuck why can't I forget you?
                          
Lo—hate,