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Dear J,
I went out with my best friend today and we caught up on life, she's doing good and I'm doing better. I guess I'm getting used to the idea that I won't be seeing you again, but there's still this heartache every time you cross my mind. 
                          
She told me about her life and how she is engaged to her on and off boyfriend since high school. I'm super happy for her, but deep down I wish it would be us. 
                          
Am I wrong to feel this way?
                          
Am I wrong to wish that I'd be the one walking down the isle to you?
                          
We always made plans for the future but look at us. Your happy dating her, while I'm here writing stupid letters you won't ever read. 
                          
Yours always,