18 ~ Mistake

                                    

                                          
It had been officially five days since the fight with y/n. Taeyong refused to go to school or leave his room.
                          
"come on taeyong at least eat something" johnny sighed from taeyongs doorway but he simply grunted as a response. 
                          
Then taeyong heard johnny sigh again and walk away from his door. 
                          
Taeyong hated the words he told y/n that day, he hated himself for making y/n feel like she wasn't enough. When she yelled at him that night taeyong realized how stupid he had been.
                          
He never wanted the person he loved to think that she was never enough, yet teayong did exactly that. He was completely heart broken, the tears running down his face currently proved that. 
                          
He continued crying but felt a bitterness build up in his heart as well.
                          
Y/n liked someone else, he could heal the damaged he had done but that would never change how y/n felt, that was what made him bitter.
                          
He was jealous of jaehyun, he never wanted to have to see him again. 
                          
Then taeyong heard screaming in his living room which interrupted his thoughts. He sat up in surprise and he heard footsteps approach his room. Moments later his door was flung open.
                          
There stood jaehyun with a very angry face, he must have heard about what happened from y/n.
                          
He approached taeyong and yuta stood behind him.
                          
"you know you're a real coward taeyong, after y/n told me what happened I decided to give you two days to show up to try to explain yourself but you never came" jaehyun yelled and taeyong felt angry all of the sudden because he knew he was a coward. He ran away from y/n.
                          
"I though you were actually a decent guy, y/n was always happy with you. I was happy about your friendship with y/n. Then you just went and broke her heart like a coward. You just left her and now you're even hiding in your room" jaehyun was fuming with anger and taeyong could see it.
                          
However, taeyong felt even more angry while looking at jaehyun, he was the one y/n loved not taeyong.
                          
The words he spoke wasn't helping either, friendship
                          
Taeyong was only ever going to be a friend to y/n. He felt a rage build inside of him as johnny entered the room holding something but taeyong didn't care. He was just so angry and hurt. 
                          
"YEAH SO WHAT" he was yelling as tears streamed down his face.
                          
"I am a coward. I ran away from y/n because I couldn't handle the fact that she would never feel the same. She would never love me like I love her, so yes I was a coward. I ran and lied so I wouldn't have to watch her fall in love with someone that wasn't me because I knew my heart couldn't take it. BUT YOU HAVE NO RIGHT TO YELL AT ME..... It's not fair you get to have her love, something I will never have" taeyong was sobbing and there was silence in the room. All that could be heard was taeyongs painful cries. 
                          
"you're a real idiot taeyong" johnny said in a whisper and he looked up at his friend in surprise. Johnny was holding a bouquet of flowers as he slowly approached taeyong. He gave the flowers to him and there was a letter attached to it. 
                          
"you know taeyong, you should have at least considered that maybe you were the one she liked not me" jaehyun said.
                          
"you really fucked up" yuta added while the two left the room along with johnny.
                          
Taeyong was so confused by jaehyuns words, he didn't understand why he had said something so strange. Then he looked down at the flowers and the small letter attached. He noticed the name written on the outside of the letter.
                          
y/n
                          
He felt his hands tremble slightly while he looked at the flowers he held in his hands. Taeyong felt a bad feelings rise but he quickly grabbed the letter and opened it. 
                          
Dear yongie,
                          
I would have told you exactly five days ago to stay at your house today. I told you that so you would be sure to receive this letter and these flowers. You know fighting for this matchmaker title was a roller coaster, we were always at each others throats. You had always won, but to be honest this matchmaker battle also made me happy. I was happy when people would fall in love and it was because I helped. I used to hate how you always won, I don't want to admit it but it always made me feel like I wasn't enough. 
                          
However, everything changed that one night when you found me outside your apartment steps eating chocolate while crying because of yukhei. You told me you always had terrible relationships and that being matchmaker helped you feel like you were needed, like maybe one day your own relationship would work. 
                          
That was the day I think I finally understood you. We started to hang out afterwards and slowly I realized something. I no longer needed the title, being with you made me realize that I was enough.
                          
You know how you said you would always wait with flowers and you would be ready to tell a girl how you felt while hoping she would accept those feelings. 
                          
I told you something after you said those words. I told you that you shouldn't be standing there waiting for her to accept your feelings alone. You should be waiting for a girl who would show up with flowers too and was waiting for you to accept her feelings as well. 
                          
Lee taeyong, I want that girl to be me... because I love you.
                          
So please come outside, I will be waiting for you to accept my flowers and my feelings, these I will gladly give you because you deserve it. 
                          
Love, y/n
                          
Taeyongs heart shattered and he got up from his bed. He opened his bedroom door and down the hall while wiping away his tears. He quickly put some shoes on and ran outside to the front of the building.
                          
There it was...
                          
No one, you weren't there to greet him and he knew why. He had fucked up, he was so blind and didn't even have the courage to ask you who you liked... who you loved. 
                          
Taeyong had finally had a girl who was willing to give him flowers and wait for him to accept his feelings, yet here he was....alone
                          
He felt tears stream down his face again as he looked at the empty road and he knew he had made a mistake.