It has been a whole week of constant messaging and trying to reach out for her. How can one single person be this stubborn? Rory should be studied. No, I should be studied for not being able to see when it's time to let go. But I couldn't. She was carrying my baby and the last thing I was going to let happen is this kid growing up without a father or anything else this baby will need. I will protect it with my life. But first, I need to protect myself from my mother, as he was on her absolute edge because of this wedding, making me learn the vows she has written for me by heart, practicing the first dance... with her.
It was the day of the big wedding and the Huntzbergers have spared no expense in making this the event of the century. The wedding is taking place in my hometown of Hartford. Everything was prepared and ready for showtime. The band was already playing and everyone was gathering downstairs, having their first drinks. I was upstairs getting ready with Finn, my best man.
He was awfully silent, this wasn't like him at all, especially at unbearable events like this one. He was texting someone while I was fixing up my tie. „Finn, what's up with you?" I asked him and got a strange reaction which made me even more confused. „You tell me." He looked up at me and continued „You have been miserable ever since you spend the night with Rory." How did he- „Oh don't be an idiot, who do you think told her we were in Las Vegas?" I swear I have never seen Finn this annoyed with me.
„Oh well yeah, lemme see, you are this stupid, I though spending that night with Rory would finally make you see how ridiculous this wedding is, but here we are, like clowns in a circus show and your mother is the master of the ceremony." He let out a bothered and clearly annoyed, forced laugh out.
„It isn't that easy Finn." I said, running my fingers through my hair, slightly starting to nervously pace back and forth, unsure of what to tell him to calm him down. Finn was rarely this serious about anything, one would think sex and alcohol were the only two things on his mind, but he would have never been this successful if he wasn't highly intelligent, but, If I may be completely honest, you didn't have to be very wise to see that things between Rory and me, weren't at a friendly-ex-lovers-who-secretly-hate-each-other base.
„Enlighten me then, Huntzberger. What is a reasonable explanation for two people who clearly love each other to be complete morons and walk away from each other for the thousandth time?" He was getting angry, wow, he really did care about me, he was truly like a brother to me and I was lying to him like this? What kind of a person have I become?
„She's pregnant Finn." That made him completely silent, he looked me questionably, looking for any sign that this could be some sort of a sick joke. To be honest, It was strange enough for me to say it out loud myself. Not a bad strange, but a... different strange, especially given the circumstances we were both in. Me for instance, marrying a woman I didn't care about or her being alone at times where I needed to be there for her.
„You really have the brain of a chicken Huntzberger, what the fuck are you doing here?" He asked, his eyes wide open, filling up with anger. „Rory is pregnant, probably puking her liver out and you are here celebrating a love that doesn't exist?" He laughed out, annoyed and frustrated by me.
In that moment the door knocked and Honor was walking inside, seeing the two of us in a heated argument when we should be fully ready, about to go downstairs and greet everyone with the biggest Hollywood smile known to men. „And what are you two still doing here?" She asked, crossing her arms, taking turns giving death stares to the two of us. „Logan is being a wimp." Finn said, probably lost for a more mature insult, he has presented me with all of his good ones already. Honor looked as confused as ever. „He has a pregnant girl waiting for him, too selfless to probably ask for it, but still... sitting alone and-" „Odette is pregnant?" Honors eyes lit up, the picture of her finally becoming an aunt filled her eyes with joy.
„No, Rory is pregnant." I said, looking down, ashamed because everything Finn was saying was the truth. I felt discussed by myself. The whole time I was making up excuses as to why she wasn't answering her calls or why she kept pushing me away when instead I should be there, I should just be there, standing in front of her door waiting for the time she needed me. Surprisingly enough, Honor didn't seem as surprised. „I know, I have seen her at a little Cafe here in Hartford with her husband, a black haired guy, kinda really masculine." I looked at her confused, remembering the dirty, trash looking dude from years ago, what was he doing with my Rory and MY BABY on a date?
I snapped, jealousy took over my whole body and I angrily grabbed my jacket. „Finn, I'm getting out through the back door." I swear, I could HEAR him smile behind me. Honor was confused, she was asking all of these questions „But what am I going to tell everyone?" She yelled at me, following me. „Tell 'em to fuck themselves Honor!" I yelled back, not looking back but rushing down to the backdoor, hoping I would make it unnoticed.
Rory, my Rory, didn't feel like I wanted her, a life with her, so she was relying on Jess? This isn't the way things are going to be. It was supposed to be me and her, forever. I kept coming up with more things that I needed to tell her on my way downstairs, trying to avoid anyone who would want to keep me. „Logan!" I heard a scream from behind, just as I was about to reach the doorknob. I turned around. „Odette I'm sorry, you have to understand." I looked at her, she was wearing her white wedding dress, I saw Finn rushing after her, probably trying to stop her, but once he saw that she caught up with me, I nodded and he walked back, making sure no one else came rushing after us.
„Logan you promised me!" She started to shake, as she walked towards me I saw the way she looked at me. Disappointment, rage and regret. „You promised me you would keep her out of our relationship." She said and started crying. The worst thing of all was that I knew that she wasn't only sad because a business deal between our families would fall apart, but because she really did care about me.
I hate that this world we live in, the world where power rules, gets people to a breaking point like this one. It makes someone chose between obligations and what was right, what felt right. Rory was the only thing in my life that ever felt right but also the only thing that I couldn't squeeze into this life, and quite frankly I didn't want to. She was the one pure thing in my life, the one thing that was truly mine and truly honest. No business deals, arrangements or obligations. How could I lose something that made me feel true emotions, pure, honest feelings?
„I'm really sorry Odette, she means everything to me." I said, she didn't move another inch. She stayed there and tears were coming down her cheeks. I would lie if I told you I didn't feel horrible for making someone feel this way. Odette wasn't the villain in this story, she was a victim, a victim of this sick world we were both pushed in at birth. I wish she could find what I have found in Rory. Salvation but adventure, peace in moments of rage and emotions on top of a lonely heart.
I turned around and walked out of the house, I threw my stuff at the passengers seat and jumped into my Porsche, driving away from here, making my way to her, feeling that after a long time that things will be okay, feeling that there is a possibility that maybe, just maybe, I would be deserving of something real, something... not arranged, but mine, all mine and true.
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RomanceA RORY/LOGAN/JESS STORY Rory finds out she is pregnant and the father of her child is engaged... This story takes place after the revival "A Year in a Life". If you haven't watched the revival, you must be aware that there are spoilers in this stor...