CHAPTER 16 | CONFESSION ( )

                                    

                                          
- Ashton's POV - 
                          
- STREETS, Monday, 10:00 PM - 
                          
I keep on driving on my car.
                          
Somehow, I can feel warm tears drop onto my face.
                          
I can't lose her today.
                          
I'm just not ready for her to die in front of my own eyes.
                          
I want her to live more.
                          
But her illness won't let her.
                          
I can feel myself crying, desperate for her own life.
                          
I wish she would still be here.
                          
If only I didn't leave her alone.
                          
If only I didn't replace her with someone else.
                          
If only I had cared enough to stay with her.
                          
The car keeps going.
                          
- HOSPITAL, 10:30 PM - 
                          
I quickly park the car and dashed through the halls.
                          
I got to the reception, exhausted and scared.
                          
Tears were still running.
                          
"Where's the room of Normani Wilson, ma'am?" I kept on panting.
                          
"She's in room 143 in the east wing." She points to the direction.
                          
I thanked the receptionist and ran over to the east wing to look for the room.
                          
Once I found the room, I see Laura, sitting beside the door.
                          
I approach her slowly.
                          
"We can enter the room once the medics have said so." I nod my head and sat down beside her.
                          
I drop my bags out of exhaustion, and fell asleep in an instant.
                          
- Tuesday, 2:00 AM - 
                          
- 6 DAYS LEFT - 
                          
I was awaken by someone nudging me.
                          
It took me a while to finally open my eyes to see the doctor.
                          
"You may come in now. Come and report to us if there will be problems." He smiles and leaves.
                          
"Laura, is it alright if I enter alone?" I held her hands tightly and bit my lip.
                          
"Sure, anything at least." She tightens my grip on her hands.
                          
I slowly let go of her hands and entered the room.
                          
And there all I saw is her, lying down.
                          
All I can hear is the loud beeping of her pulse.
                          
I carefully approach her body.
                          
Luckily, her heartbeat is still stable.
                          
But there she lays unconscious.
                          
I gently hold her cold hand.
                          
And these words came out of my mouth.
                          
"Don't leave me now, Norms." I start, feeling a lump form in my throat.
                          
"I know you are a strong woman, a person who can fight for anything." For now, tears fall down.
                          
"As long as I can remember, I know you as a kind and caring person to me." I sniffle.
                          
"You're my best friend, my roommate for 2 years now." I wipe away some of the tears with my sleeve.
                          
"And I cared for you, even if you kept falling down, or you started looking much different." I sigh, looking up, my heart pounding faster.
                          
"I'm here to tell you now that I..." Those words get shoved deep into my throat.
                          
"I-I love you, so much." As those came out, I close my eyes, clenched my teeth, and held her hand tighter.
                          
"Every moment you've fallen down, every single pain you felt..." I kneel down.
                          
"I'll be there, to catch you, and treat you as much as I can do." Bringing my head down, and sobbed quietly.
                          
I wish she would hear my words...
                          
And understand me like she always does.
                          
Normani...
                          
Stay with me until your last breath.
                          
I'll still be here, saying 'I love you' forever.
                          
I'll cuddle you, or kiss you even if you're hurt.
                          
There's no way I can replace you.
                          
I wanted to be with you, ever since I caught you faltering.