As i stared up at the ceiling, I let out a sigh. The boys had gone on stage to perform about half an hour ago and normally I would've jumped at the chance to go see them but I needed time to myself; time to think. So I told them I was feeling ill and the bought it.
I need to think about a lot of things really; what my life was, what my life has become, what I should have for lunch tomorrow, whether or not I should get a tattoo and oh yeah maybe the fact that three of the hottest guys I know and my celebrity crushes like me back?!
It's crazy and unexpected and I don't know what to do about it. I mean, what if Nate's wrong? Should I just confront them and potentially make it awkward between us? Or should I just ignore it and maybe let it come between their friendship? I couldn't do that to them. I've only just entered their life.
It's weird how close I feel to them; I barely know them if you think about. I don't know what they're favourite colours are or what they're scared or what annoys them.
But I don't think I need to really. It would be nice to know what makes them tick but not necessary.
I already know them through watching them and being around them.
Take Sam for example. He puts on the front of being Mr flirty and a heartbreaker but in reality he's just waiting for the right girl to come along.
And Nate, he can be incredibly cheeky when he wants to be but he can also be really caring towards his friends and would do anything to make them happy.
And then you have Jack G. The sweetest boy you could ever meet but he's also not afraid to stand up for himself; he's definitely not a pushover.
Jack J is just an all round good person; always happy, always smiling, always positive.
I continued to let my thoughts whirl round my head until the the dressing room door opened in front of me. The four boys, plus Jake who I haven't spoke to much, poured into the room; all of them looking hot and sweaty which was both attractive yet disgusting at the same time.
They looked around the room until their eyes found me on the floor. Jack J cocked his head to one side.
"Lily what are you doing on the floor?" he asked in utter confusion.
"It's my thinking place." I simply replied. A glimmer of understanding flashed through Nate's eyes but as soon as I noticed it, it was gone again.
"Well are you feeling better?" Nate asked looking directly at me, concern etched onto his features. I nodded in response.
"Great!" Sam clapped his hands together. "cos we're having a sleepover tonight." I'm sure his smirk could be noticed from space it was that big.
"I'll have to ask my mum first." I reasoned.
Jack G shook his head.
"No need, we've already spoken to her and she said that its fine by her. Actually, she mentioned that it would be refreshing to see you actually outside of your bedroom for once." he teased making my face flush pink.
"Well I guess I'm free." i joked back making everyone chuckle.
"What am I going to do about clothes?"
"Well you can borrow some of ours I guess." I just nodded not really caring what I wore to be honest.
The boys quickly packed all of their belongings up and headed for the door.
"You ready?"
As ready as I'll ever be.
