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I like to drink hot coffee at three am just to remember
                          
how it feels to get 
                          
burned,
                          
I like to lie on my room's cold floor and read Plath's words
                          
until my eyes completely die and my back hurts almost like hell,
                          
I like to sit down for what feels an
                          
eternity (perhaps, a little longer)
                          
and think about every tiny and stupid thing i've ever done in my life,
                          
I like to walk home, it gives me
                          
an entirely serenity (as a drug to an addict),
                          
I like to eat chocolate when I feel like
                          
I should drown myself in vodka,
                          
I like to listen to loud music because
                          
it's the only way to shut the loud voices in my head...
                          
But listen,
                          
when I see a mother with its children,
                          
or a girl with its lover,
                          
or a boy with its friends,
                          
I realise that I don't exactly like the taste of 
                          
loneliness,
                          
I just need a soul that won't give up on me
                          
because I know that 
                          
eventually,
                          
I will too.
                          


                          
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WARNING: this book touches some sensitive topics (such as mental illness, suicide/death, violence, drugs, self harm, etc) which may be triggering if you suffer(ed) with these. please leave if you don't feel comfortable. if you can handle it, read under your own cost.
                          
I AM NOT ROMANTICIZING ANY OF THOSE SUBJECTS.
                          
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