I'LL FIGHT FOR YOU

                                    

                                          
 THIS IS SUPER LONG I'M SO SORRYYY
           
           i will fight, i will fight for you
          i always do, until my heart, is black and blue
         and i will stay, i will stay with you
        we'll make it to the other side, like lovers do
                          
YOUR POV
                          
you felt like your heart was in pieces. your biggest secret was revealed to your crush, colby brock. he looked extremely ashamed, almost embarrassed to be around you. 
                          
you've been hospitalized, for a disease that no one can figure out. nobody even knows the name of it, they just assume you're some type of freak, and colby finding out didn't help. 
                          
you're currently laying in your bed, letting the tears flow while you drown out your thoughts while,  changes - xxxtentacion, plays in your earbuds. this song helps you with shutting out the world, it's comforting. 
                          
you received a text, and looked to see who it was from. it was from your doctor, sara. she said you'd have to be hospitalized again tomorrow, some test results weren't looking too good on your part. 
                          
you quickly texted her back, telling her you'd be there first thing in the morning. you got a call, and it was sam. you picked it up and he saw your tears through the screen, making his face sadden. 
                          
"y/n..."
                          
"it's okay sam, really i'm fine."
                          
"are you completely sure?"
                          
your lip quivered. more tears just came rushing out, you felt like you couldn't breathe. you started to cough, and grabbed your trash bin, spitting out some disgusting mucus from your lungs. 
                          
sam sighed, you could tell he was upset for you. sam knew about your tests that you must take once every two months, but he didn't know what it was for. you didn't want anyone to know what was wrong, afraid they would think you were abnormal. 
                          
"oh y/n, you don't look so good. do you need me to come over?"
                          
"no sam i'm okay, i have to go to the hospital in the morning anyway, so i should probably get some rest."
                          
"wait...you never told me why you have treatments and take tests. i'm worried for you, please open up to me..."
                          
"goodnight sam, sleep well." and with that, you hung up the phone. you swore that no one would know about it, as your time was almost up anyway. 
                          
you shut off your lamp, and then plugged in your phone so it could charge, and you drifted off into a light sleep. 
                          
~time skip~
                          
your foot tapped on the ground anxiously. you had a lump in your throat. sara said that this appointment couldn't be missed, or else it would be crucial to you. 
                          
               i'll reach my hands out, in the dark
              and wait for yours to, interlock 
             i'll wait for you, i'll wait for you
                          
sara came out and called your name, telling you to follow her. she opened a patient door and had you sit on one of the hospital beds. she sighed heavily, and looked at you with sad eyes. 
                          
"i'm sorry y/n but...your treatments aren't working. there's nothing we can do, we've tried everything.."
                          
your heart fell to the floor. tears pooled your eyes, even though you tried not to show them. sara patted your shoulder and sat next to you, pulling you so you could rest your head on her shoulder. 
                          
"i'm so sorry babe, i'm not going to give up. i will try so many more treatments and i will try to fix thi-"
                          
"sara there's nothing you can do. i'm going to die eventually, it just came earlier than i thought it would."