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Ryder
                          
"So we're going tomorrow? To save Rose?" Ethan asks, spinning in the kitchen chair.
                          
"She's getting married tomorrow," Lucas remarks, avoiding my eyes.
                          
"No, she's not." I stand up and leave the kitchen. I hear the two men get up and follow me.
                          
"Ryder, I know the boys are ready for this but are you stable enough to go in fighting? This isn't something you can just expect to go right, we don't know who we're up against or how many. You need to pull yourself together." Lucas questions as we head to the backyard.
                          
"The only person that can calm me down now is Rose. If you want me to be stable, bring her here, in front of me, right now. I'm already insane at this point and I don't know how I managed to even leave her in that room a couple of days ago. Don't tell me to be calm, I don't know when I'll lose it but I know tomorrow, a completely different side of me will come out. Someone deadly." I clench my fist and stare into space. 
                          
Caleb. He's the one I want dead. I'll kill him myself for putting Rose through all of this, for betraying us, and just being the little bitch I didn't know he was.
                          
Ethan and Lucas stand stunned next to me. After a minute, Ethan smirks.
                          
"I'm glad you still have that fire in you, I thought Rose softened you too much, I guess not. We shouldn't worry about him, Lucas, he'll let off plenty of steam tomorrow. He needs this fight." He becomes serious at the end of his statement.
                          
Lucas nods.
                          
"Let's get the gang. We're heading out soon."
                          
Rose
                          
I lean against the car window as they take me some other random place.
                          
After snatching me up off my bed, and a couple of bodyguards with broken noses, of course, my father takes me around Italy for this stupid wedding. 
                          
The first store was for white heels, the second makeup, I'm guessing the dress is next.
                          
I fucking hate this. I would've been satisfied if they had just put me to sleep and tried on all these things while I was knocked out. My father's trying to break me, showing me that all of this is real and it will happen, no matter what. He's telling me to accept it.
                          
Fuck him.
                          
I stare out at the scenery and chuckle. Freedom's so close but unattainable. Another lesson from dad.
                          
It's ok. Ryder will be safe. He's all I care about.
                          
We stop at some boutique and I yawn. Let's get this over with.
                          
I get out the car and walk into a store I can't even bother looking up to see the name of.
                          
Sittting on some couch next to the window, I watch as my father and Caleb walk into the shop. 
                          
They have to be here? 
                          
I scoff. Today just keeps getting better.
                          
I avoid eye contact and look out of the window and onto the streets of Italy. 
                          
I can't say I didn't miss the beautiful buildings and sculptures. The canals and the boats between the lamp-lit streets, causing the light to glisten on the water. Its a sight to see. I wish I didn't have so many bad memories here, it would've been nice to bring Ryder here. He would've loved it, he's a sucker for romantic shit. He probably would want to ride in a boat and have some sort of "Tangled" scene. I chuckle.
                          
I hope he meets a girl that will love him as much as I do.
                          
A sour feeling passes through me.
                          
I...just hope he's happy, as much as I know I'll hate the bitch I won't lie to myself and say I'm cool with it, but I'll be grateful to her for making Ryder happy, cause I can't anymore.
                          
I take a deep breath.
                          
I have to stop with the sad mopey attitude. It's just how everything ended. I'm fine, I'll get over this. Not him, but leaving him, I will. I have to, soon I'll have the mafia to run. People who will depend on me in every aspect of their life.
                          
Caleb takes a seat next to me, while my father stands in front of me with his eyes trained on the passing bikes outside. He seems sad as his eyes shine with tears. His eyes move down to look at me and he closes up, as if fixing the hole in his armor.
                          
He walks away from us and goes to the front desk, keeping his stone face on.
                          
He's hiding something from us, but I don't know if I care enough to ask what. No matter what, he still did what he did, does what he does and I can't forgive him.
                          
I'm not one of those all-forgiving little girls who understand why people do what they do, no, I'll hate as hard as I want. It's healthy and to be honest, i dont give a fuck.
                          
I'm mad and I'm tired.
                          
My life has begun again, but this time with darkness surrounding me every step.
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1.98M
                          
5/11/19
                          
Finally out with a new chapter love y'all so sorry for the break.
                          
Ciao.