Numbers grow as I get older
Weighing down my fragile soul
Eyelids heavy
Heart aflutter
Friendless flightless bird of prey
Born to be on top they say
But I'm alone with broken wings
Listen for my beating heart
The faintest wisps
Bleeding red
Feet skipping softly
Words are dancing in my head
Spinning, spinning
Dizzy now my thoughts are screaming
Yes I hear them loud and clear
Louder til my soul is drowning
Don't they know?
My soul is drowned
Drowned in fear that I created
Fear of love that I long for
Love for the girl found in the mirror
But what if she is undeserving?
What if she's too busy running?
What if numbers keep on growing?
As long as I keep asking questions
The fear inside will keep me drowning
