I started to cry, I don't even know why
"Amanda" I heard
it was connor, he ran up to me.
"are you okay?" he asked
"not really" I replied
"hey Amanda" I heard
It sounded like Sam
"please don't be Sam please don't be Sam" I thought
he ran up to me.
"Amanda what's wrong?" sam asked
"Sam?" connor said
"Connor?" sam said
"how do you all know each other!?" I said
"long story" sam said
"Amanda we can go to my place if you wanna talk about it" connor said
"woah, she just met you..she should come to my place" sam said
"I really think that-" I cut connor off
"guys stop! I don't wanna go anywhere with either of you ok?" I said as I walked away to the back of the theatre.
they looked confused.
I sat down and leaned against the wall.
"why is everything so complicated? why is it that whenever I meet a boy they happen to know my ex's? " I thought to myself.
"Amanda" I heard
"whoever you are go away" I said
they didn't go away, they sat right beside me. I couldn't see nor did I care who it was.
"please forgive me"
it must be kian
"Leave me alone" I said
"Amanda, it already happened, there's nothing I can do to change it" he said
"yea but it still hurts" I said
"Please look at me" he said
I looked up.
"I like you so much, and I regret everything that I ever did to you. I never wanna hurt you again. I want to to feel safe around me" he said
"Kian I can't just keep on forgiving you" I said
he wiped away a tear on my face with his thumb. don't give in, don't give in
I didn't listen to myself. I kissed him.
not listening to a single thought in my head.
I wrapped my legs around him, our lips still connected.
I couldn't get myself to stop. it was getting intense
he pulled away
"do you wanna do this?" he asked
I hesitated
"yes"
our lips met again
after awhile I finally came to my senses
he hurt me, I can't just forgive him.
I pulled away, he started kissing my neck
"Kian stop" I said
"stop what?" he asked
"this" I said
I was sitting in his lap right now, I got up and started to walk away.
he grabbed my wrist
"are you kidding me?" he said
"what?" I asked
"you can't just do that and walk away." he said
"yea? what am I supposed to do? sleep with you?" I said
he didn't say anything
"exactly" I said as I got out of his grasp and started walking again. he didn't come after me.
I got a text
"where'd you run off to?" it said
it must be connor
"nowhere" I replied
I dialed Sam's number
"hello?" he said
"Are you still at the theatre?" I asked
"no, why?" he asked
"oh never mind" i replied
"do you need a ride?" he asked
"yea but I don't wanna bother you" I said
"it's no bother. I'll be there in 5" then he hung up
He got to theatre and I got in his car.
"Sorry about fighting over you" he said
"It's okay Sam" I said
"So are you and kian?"
"we're not together anymore" i said
"I'm sorry Amanda" he said
I could tell by the tone in his voice that he was glad we broke up.
"so does this mean we can get back together?" he asked
"I don't know Sam, I kind of just got out of a relationship" I said
"right" he replied
"Sam why do you even like me? I'm a mess. you could have any girl, yet you choose me. there's so many skinny beautiful girls out there." I said
"Amanda, you are the most beautiful girl I've ever seen. You're funny, smart, cute and hot, which makes you able to get any guy you want." he said
I smiled
we got to my house. i got out, went around to the drivers side, opened the car door and kissed Sam.
"What was that for? not that I'm complaining" he said with a wink
I grabbed his hand and we both went inside and sat on the couch.
