Chapter 13: My Life

                                    

                                          
This chapter has some talk about suicide...please know your limit!!!
                          
(two days later)
                          
Shadow's POV 
                          
I'm getting extremely frustrated with my wolf. She's being so annoying! And I can't escape from her... 
This entire situation absolutely sucks. I can't keep doing this. I can't keep being stuck as a wolf. This is why I'm running full speed to the edge of a cliff, I know, it's not a good idea. But at least I won't feel this pain. I can't be with them. I can't. I don't deserve them. I'm a feral. They'll be better off without me. 
My wolf is trying to talk me out of this, but I don't care. She said that if I do this Ill ruin her life. Who cares? I reach the cliff's edge. And I jump. 
                          
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Twin's POV
                          
We look at each other. Our bond with Shadow just broke. Entirely. 
We both fall to the ground. She's dead, we can feel it. And with that, we take off. Going to find what's left of her.
                          
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Shadow's POV 
                          
I felt myself falling. I feel free. I can choose my fate after all. I felt pain as I hit the ground. I could feel my bones cracking, lungs getting crushed. I could feel the blood pour out of me. And it was exhilarating. 
And then I felt nothing. Nothing at all. And it was, lonely. 
And then I felt pain. I could feel the mate bond break. I could feel their pain. 
I howl, but the howl comes out as a mangled scream. 
I screamed. Only humans can...
I look at my hands. HANDS?!
I look down. I'm in a white dress. I have feet, and toes. I have hair. I pick my lips. I HAVE FREAKING LIPS! Not a wolf mouth! I look around. I'm in a forest. There's a bright light within it.
I go to the light, the darkness clouding my senses. 
The bright light is a woman, crowded by others in white clothes. 
They all turn to me.
"Shadow."
I look to the voice. 
"Mom?"
I run to her. 
I look around and notice that this is my pack.
"Dad, Ash?"
I think. 
"How?"
A new voice speaks.
"This is Death, Shadow. You're free. Free to be with your family."
I look to see a beautiful woman. She is wearing pure glittering white. 
I instantly bow.
"Great Luna?"
"Yes, my child?"
"Why?"
"Why what?"
"Why did I suffer so much? Why?"
"You're Special."
"Why?"
"That's quite a lot of why's, isn't it?"
"Yes, but..."
"You have a choice. Stay here and never suffer. Or return."
"What?"
"Your mates still need their mate, and the wolves need their queen."
I whine. Callum and Coen. I was so selfish.
"I don't deserve to be here."
"Why do you think that?"
"I left them. When they still needed me."
"So?"
"So..."
I look to my family, my pack. I see my best friend. She smiles. She's holding her mate.
I smile. I didn't get that. And they didn't either.
"I'll miss you guys."
I nod to the Moon Goddess. I know what I should do.
                          
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I run through the forest, tongue lolling out of my mouth. I run to the pack house and howl. Everyone comes out. I hear whispers.
"She was dead."
And right they are. I was dead. But I made a choice. 
I wait. And then I see them, Callum and Coen. 
I bark and they look at me, eyes full of disbelief. I run over to them. They grab me and hug me. They start to laugh and it mends my broken heart. They're happy.
I feel Moon prancing around in my head. She's happy. 
I feel my heart swell. I'm happy.
We're all happy. I've made the right choice. I run away from them into the woods, and everyone follows. No questions asked. 
I howl atop of a hill, all the others joining me. I look around, and see that they trust me. I'm leading the pack. I look at each and every wolf here. And then, I picture myself as a human. I remember my blonde hair, my pale skin. I remember my feet that took me on all my adventures as a child. I remember my hands, the ones that got burned by me touching the fire. My mother wrapped them up and I said I was lucky, for burns would heal fast. 
                          
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Coen's POV 
                          
My mate led us all. I held my head high with pride as she looked all of us over. She is going to make and exceptional queen.
My beautiful mate.
Once she was don't looking al lot us over, she stood there. And then something VERY unexpected happened...she...
                          
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(790 words)
                          
DUN DUN DUNNNNNN I got another chapter done! Yay!
Sorry! ❤️