Chapter 7

                                    

                                          
No matter how much I try to calm myself, I still end up gasping for air every time I caught him looking at me. Baliw na ba ang isang 'to? Gabing gabi na at ngayon nya pa talaga naisipang makipag usap. 
                          
"How's your day? " paninimula nya at masama ko syang tinignan. So ito lang yung pinunta nya? He just wanted to know how's my day, but in fact we're all hanging out for the whole day. 
                          
"Seriously, Codi? Marami pa kong importanteng gagawin. " papasok na sana ulit ako sa loob ng bahay pero hinawakan 'ko sa siko at syaka hinigit pabalik. "Ano nanaman? Kung itatanong mo kung anong ulam namin, pwes hindi ko alam dahil hindi pa 'ko nakain. At kung itatanong mo kung may gagawin ba 'ko, oo ang sagot ko. At kung concern ka kung ayos lang ba 'ko, wag kang mag alala dahil okay na okay lang ako. " if being harsh to him is the only way to avoid that topic, then I'm willing to be the most mean girl.
                          
"Pano naman ako, Syke? Hindi mo ba 'ko tatanungin kung kumain na ba 'ko? Hindi mo ba ko tatanungin kung may gagawin pa ba 'ko mamaya o kung okay lang ba 'ko? " the light from the moon helped me take a glimpse of his face. At kung hindi man ako nagkakamali, nakainom sya. 
                          
"You're just drunk. " I tried to push him away but he's too strong. Parang ako pa nga yung matutumba sa ginawa ko. 
                          
"I love you. " 
                          
"G-go home, Codi. " 
                          
i love you.
                          
i love you.
                          
Bullshit! That's just a word, Syke! That could be a lie! Hindi kayo pwede, okay? Wag kang malandi, hayop ka. 
                          
"Ayaw mo ba sakin? " he caress my face and his thumb gently touch my lips. "Hindi mo ba 'ko gusto? " tila nang uuyam ang kanyang boses at napapikit ako ng mariin. 
                          
"Hindi 'to tama. " I said but looks like I just said it to convince myself. 
                          
"Bakit, Syke? Dahil ba parehas tayong Jastillana? " my eyes went wide open. Walang bakas na kahit anong pag aalinlangan sa kanyang mukha hanggang sa umihip ang malakas na hangin at sumilip ang maliit nyang sa tattoo sa gilid ng kanyang noo na kagagawan ng kanyang sariling ina. 
                          
callen

                          
"H-how did y-you know? " 
                          
"I saw your picture in my dad's work book before. And your eyes... they are same from him. " para akong natulala sa kanyang sinabi. So all this time, he knew about that? All this time he knew that we runs the same blood, but why did he still fall for me if he knew in the first place that this isn't right? 
                          
"Then stop this, Codi. Alam mo naman palang mali lahat nang 'to sa una palang! " 
                          
"I tried to stop myself, Syke. I did. I've dated many girls, but every night before I go to sleep, you're still the one that I think about. " if only we're not on a situation like this, I might be blushing with those flowery words. But I can't. Dahil hindi pwede. Mali 'to. 
                          
"Umuwi kana. " tinulak ko sya ng malakas at agad akong tumakbo papasok sa loob ng aming bahay. I could hear his voice calling my name. Napatakip nalang ako sa aking tainga at bago pa bumuhos ang aking luha ay naramdaman ko na ang mahigpit na pagyakap sakin ni nanay Emilda.
                          
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pronounced as ca-len