26

                                    

                                          
I was anxiously waiting in the living room for Shawn to pick me up. I hope his explanation was good enough because I really miss him. A lot actually. 
                          
I took a deep breath and then my phone buzzed making me jump. 
                          
Shawn: I'm coming up now 
                          
Me: Don't come up I'll come down 
                          
Shawn: why? 
                          
Me: because Zack will fucking kill you if he sees you and will kill me if he finds out I'm seeing you
                          
Shawn: oh 
                          
Me: I'll be down 
                          
"I'll see you later Zack" I yelled before scurrying out of the door and making my way down to the parking lot. Shawn was parked in his usual spot leaning against his car. I walked over to him and he smiled up at me.
                          
"Hi" he mumbled almost shyly which made me smile. 
                          
"Hi" I replied quietly, he opened the door for me and I got into his car. I buckled up my seat belt and he fastened his seat belt before looking at me. He smiled at me looking into my eyes, I don't why but he was making me blush. I just looked down at my hands while the radio quietly played in the back. We didn't speak to each other the whole ride which was awkward but I just kept my gaze on my hands in my lap.
                          
After a quiet ride we made it to his place and I was relieved to get out of this car. He opened the door and gave me a hand but I declined and helped myself out of the car.  
                          
He led me up to his apartment and it was very dark inside before he turned on the lights. "Wait in the living room while I get everything ready" he says and I nod taking myself into his living room and taking a seat. I sat hearing a lot of noise coming from Shawn's kitchen. 
                          
"Okay come with me" he says entering the room and I stood up following him to his balcony. He opened the door and let me go first. There was a small table with a candle in the centre of the table. A bottle of red wine.Then two paper brown bags and I knew exactly what they were. 
                          
"Here" He says pulling the chair out for me so I could take a seat and then he took a seat opposite me. We just looked at each other for a few brief moments before he clears his throat. 
                          
"I got you your favourite" he says gesturing towards the brown bag which I knew contained my favourite double cheeseburger and fries. 
                          
"I think you're one step closer to forgiveness" I say and his eyes light up as a smile took place in his lips. 
                          
We took the food out of our bags and I straight away bit into the burger with satisfaction. He took a few bites and then took a deep breath. 
                          
"So first I want to say I'm sorry. Like you don't know how fucking awful I feel" he says and I nod. 
                          
"I had the trip coming up which I knew about last minute then I was overloaded with so much shit that I was going to sleep at like 3am and then I had to go back to work at 7am. It was so stressful and I really didn't want to stress you at all and then when you came I just snapped" he confesses. 
                          
"You really hurt my feelings when you snapped at me. It was very mean. Shawn I really care about you and I don't care if you don't want to give me stress I want to you to be able to share your problems" I say and he sighs. 
                          
"Do you know I cried every day Shawn? I was so upset and I was also extremely angry too" I say and he frowns. 
                          
"I'm sorry I really am Valery, I feel so shit about what I said to you. If I could take it back I would" he says and I shrug.