I look over at Dani and see her face covered with tears. She seems to be very quiet, not acknowledging anyone's presence. Spencer, on the other hand, still looks fuming, but I don't blame him.
I sigh before sitting down in my chair beside Kendall. It's quiet for a few moments, everyone taking in the tragedy of the situation. I stare out the window, still gripping her hand, and watch as the sunrise dwindles down into a bright blue sky.
"How's she doing?" Dani asks, emerging from her shell. At first, I'm shocked to hear her speak, seeming as though she was quite reserved only moments ago. Despite this, I answer, "Uh, the doctor's said she's in a coma. They don't know when she'll wake up... Her lungs filled almost completely with water, so they drained them after performing CPR. And they cleaned her cuts, put bandages on them and stuff like that. The nurses come and check on her every once in a while to see if she's improved."
I take a deep breath and look over at Kendall's state. By the look of it, it doesn't look like she'll be waking up and time soon, and if she does, there's a high chance of brain damage. Realizing that, I let the tears I've been trying so desperately to hold in fall. They seep into the fabric of my shirt.
I hold my forehead as I cry, not caring who's watching. "I'm so sorry, Ken. I'm so sorry..." I kiss her on her hand, her bandaged cuts, and once more on the forehead before walking out of the room.
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I head to the cafeteria for about a half an hour, looking through an assortment of hospital food. I decide the safest thing is the mac-and-cheese, so I take a small bowl of it. I swipe a can of Dr. Pepper as well. After the cashier rings me up, I find an unoccupied table to sit at.
I sit down at pick at my mac-and-cheese, even though I'm not even hungry. Tears fall into my food, and at that moment, I push it away. I can't believe everything that's happened in the past seven months -- me falling in love with Kendall, her mom dying, her moving away, and now, her in the hospital, fighting for her life. It's hit me like a ton of bricks, and the tears continue to flow. There's absolutely nothing I can do to stop them, and I don't try to. Letting it all out could be helpful.
As I walk back to Kendall's room, I stop short once spotting Dani in the waiting room. I walk up to her, hoping to find out what's wrong. "Hey," I say, taking a seat next to her. She gives me a nod and wipes the tear off her cheek.
"Do you think she'll be alright?" She asks, looking down to the ground. I don't know what to say or how to respond. Did I think she was going to be okay? I wasn't really sure, to be honest. What could I say? What was I supposed to say? I tell her what I honestly feel.
"I'm not sure,"
Her back heaves at the answer, and at that moment, I take her hand. I don't know why I did it, but it seems like the right thing to do. She needed the comfort, and since I was there, I guess I should be the one to give it to her.
At that moment, a doctor rushes in the waiting room. "Are you Cole Parker?"
"Uh, yeah. Why, is there something wrong?"
"I suggest you come immidiately."
Dani and I rush out of the waiting room and follow the Doctor.
When we go inside her room, I'm utterly shocked at what I see. About fifteen nurses and doctors surround Kendall, screaming and yelling medical words I don't understand. Spencer and Katherine keep their distance as Spencer holds Katherine tightly in his arms. She cries heavily onto his chest, and it takes me a moment to realize what's going on.
"Doc, Doc! What's happening?" I shout to him above all the noise and beeping.
I go over to Kendall's bedside, pushing a few nurses away in the process to get to her. I look up at the heart monitor and notice the straight red line. "Oh no, oh no.." I mutter, "Kendall, no, please." It feels like I'm going insane, like this is a dream -- or rather, a nightmare -- I'm living in.
Dani grips her mother as they both cry.
"Come on, Ken. Wake up. Please, wake up!" I start to shake her, to do anything in my power to get her to wake up, but it doesn't seem to be working.
Doctors continue to surround her, doing everything they can to try and save her.
"Kendall! Kendall! Oh, please, don't go. Not now!" Tears pour from my eyes as I try desperately to wake her up. She's not breathing anymore and he body seems even more frail and transparent than it did before.
After about thirty minutes of doctors frantically working, Doctor Martin comes over to me. "I'm so sorry. We've tried everything we could..." He pats me on the shoulder comfortingly before heading out, leaving only Dani, Spencer, Katherine and I alone, drowning in tears.
"Kendall! Kendall!" I scream. Now I'm pretty sure I'm going insane. She can't be dead, she can't be.
Katherine takes Dani and Spencer out of the room.
I hold Kendall's hand and kiss it. One, two, three times. I rest my head on her unmoving chest, crying into it as she lies unresponsive on the hospital bed.
"Kendall, wake up. There's so many things I haven't told you, so many things we haven't done..."
"Kendall, please." I try desperately to get her to wake, or even move a finger. Anything would be better than this.
My once loud cries have turned soft, giving up on her ever waking up again. "Kendall, don't leave me," I whisper, "Don't leave me..."
After a few moments, I see something in the corner of my eye. Is that-? Did she just-? No, it couldn't be. She's dead. But then I see it again. Her fingers wiggle on her left hand, and she squeezes the one I'm holding. I glance at the heart monitor and see that it's now moving again, although very faintly.
"Doctor Martin! Doctor Martin, come quick!" I shout, pressing the red button above her bed. Within a matter of seconds, he comes racing into the room.
"She's awake," I say, "She's awake."
I squeeze her hand and smile, the biggest, most happiest smile that's ever been on my face. "Cole?" she says grogily, coughing from saying my name.
"It's me, Ken. I'm here." As her eyes flutter open, I give a warm smile, tears streaking on my face. I can't believe what's happening. She's awake. She remembers me. She's alive.
"Well, good morning, Mrs. Duncan. Looks like you gave us all quite a scare," Doctor Martin says, putting his blue pen back in his pocket.
She nods slightly. With that, Doctor Martin leaves the room.
Kendall turns to me and gives me a small smile. "Cole, I'm so sor-"
"No." I say, "There's nothing to be sorry for. It was all my fault. I shouldn't have left you alone, I shouldn't have stopped trying to reach you. I shouldn't have done any of that to you..."
She smiles before I continue on, "Look, let me explain. I didn't cheat, Ken. Rebecca's the one who came onto me. I tried to stop her, I really did, but she just-"
"Shh." She holds a finger to my lips, stopping me mid-sentence. "It's okay, now. I forgive you."
I cock an eyebrow, confused at her gesture. "You forgive me? How could you possibly forgive me aft-"
"It's not important anymore. Can't we just forget all of this ever happened?" She gives me a smile as she looks deep into my eyes. I kiss her on the lips softly and sweetly.
"I love you, Kendall Grace Duncan. Never forget that." I bring her hand up to my lips once again and look into her deep green orbs, meaning each and every word. "You will always be my one and only."
A tear falls from her eye and I wipe it away with my thumb. She smiles, showing her beautiful white teeth, and kisses me on the lips. "I love you more than anything, Cole Parker."
I smile at the reality of it all, and how things turned out. I guess happy endings and miracles really do exist.
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