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Jonahs pov
                          
I saw my babys drawing of me it was soo insanely good I couldn't belive it. Zachy I whisper out into the cold air of the night it was dark and I was leaning against a building which just happened to be a bar which I was a regular at I had a black hoodie on with my hood up and a cigarette between my fingers i never used to smoke and drink but I started after I had nothing left my parents and family disowned me for being a disappointment and gay my lover no longer wanted me I couldnt see my son anymore my music career was going south and I stopped making music all together all i had was my best friend corbyn and the hopes that I would go home one day but the last one never happened. I bring the cigarette to my lips then blow the smoke out I miss my baby so so much I need to find a way to see him again before I'm even more late than i already am mabey for zachs birthday I could go home mabey just mabey i just need to gain daniels trust once more. I start to walk off back to me and corbyns apartment right befire I walk in to the building I stomp out my cigarette before proceeding into the building. I wonder what zachs like I wonder if he even remembers me I dout it though but one thing i do remeber about my baby boy is his first word dada I remeber it as clear as day I was putting him to bed for the night I was messing around with him sticking my hand into his crib and tickling him and talking to him in a cute baby voice saying things like daddy loves you , your so sweet , whos a sweet baby? And things around those lines his giggle was priceless it was so cute. After I finished tickling him I bend down and kissed his head and it just popped out dada.i was speechless and overwhelmed with happiness that night after I told daniel about it we were both so happy but I was a little disapointed that my little boy was growing up. But now lets fast forward in an achohalic disappointment waste of space who missed almost his whole childhood. I remeber back when I was in high school
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e and my bestfriend corbyn were attached at the hip never apart from each other so when I made the baseball team there was a curly haired bat boy his name was jack me corbyn and jack soon became friends and jack introduced us to daniel his bestfriend my first thoughts on the blue eyed boy was well i dont even know because I couldnt even hear my own thoughts over my pounding heart. Three months after i met daniel I got up enough courage to ask daniel on a date after that we began to go out and instantly I fell in love I had other girl friends and boyfriends but it was different with daniel I had never felt this feeling I felt he had total control overme and I loved the feeling. After high school we were in a long distance relationship while I was in college I had gotten a scholar ship from baseball I wasnt gonna go because I wanted to be with daniel but he ensured me hed be fine and a few years later I took him on a walk in the woods once we got to the spot I wanted I bent down on one knee taking him by surprise after that we got married. Aboit a year into our marriage we had our little boy we were so fond of the young baby and he ment everything to us. Jack and cirbyn even started a relationship but it didnt ladt and they both decided to just be friends about twelve or so years ago jack got married and I was at the wedding and so was zach and daniel but I couldnt go near them if I did jack threatened to call the cops but almost the whole wedding I was staring at the small boy in daniels lap sucking a pacifier it was to cute and zach was so beautiful. During parts of the wedding I noticed daniel giving me glares or staring at me but when he noticed I was looking at him he would quickly look away and a few times he put zach down to play but everytime I would try to go see the small boy corbyn would hold me back or jack would so I had to admire my baby from afar zach was the main thing I paid attention to that night. After the wedding was over and everyone was leaving i was talking to jack when something or more like someone started crawling around and on me and jacks feet when i looked down i couldnt help but smile at the little boy who was looking up at me with beautiful dark brown orbs jack picked him up and I was just staring at the beautiful boy but then daniel came over ruining the moment side eyeing me come here sweetheart he says holding his arms out to the small boy who gladly went to him daddy he chimes in happily as I just smile at the cuteness of both daniel and zach after that daniel told jack he was going home and would see him around. Jack just nodded and smirked looking at both of us what? I ask after a second if silence oh nothing just you,you guys together jack says I look at daniel and we make eye contact with one another I wanted to wrap my arms around Dani and kiss my baby but I couldnt do it zach had his head resting on daniels shoulder sucking on an orange pacifier I give them both a sad smile zachy I whisper reaching towards the baby but daniel just turned on his heels and started out the door Daniel! I shouted from behind him but he kept going until he was at his car he opened the backseat and put zach who was falling asleep in his carseat buckling him up quickly trying to avoid me but when he turned around I grabbed his wrists and pushed him up against the car. What the he'll do you want! He angerly spat at me trying to free his wrists you Dani I want you I want you back and I wanna be apart of that baby life I breathed out putting my face close to his n-no ZA-zachs my kid now he-hes my little boy no-not yours and after he said that even though its been years and years it kept replaying in my head and still does to this day. Back then me being stupid and wanting nothing more than the life I gave up back pushed daniel to the side and swung the back door open the see my little boy in his carseat I was breathing heavey by now zach was asleep I leaned into look at the boy and kissed his forehead hi sweetheart I whispered to the boy and felt something jump I to my back and I stumbled backwards He pins my wrists above my head wow daniel got stronger you dont not touch him! He hisses at me HES MY KID !  I yell at him by that time jack and his new husband eben were leaving and heard all the yelling so thet ran around to where daniel larked his car to see our little fight. I pushed daniel into the outside wall of the chaple snd he throws a quick punch and me. After that I felt someone pull me back and jack held daniel back so I assumed it was jacks husband eben holding me back after that i left and was told to never come back to any of them not zach not daniel not even one of my best friends jack that was the last time I saw my little boy in person I still have daniels phone number though atleast I have something 
Right now im currently laying in my bed in just my boxers and the warm blankets pulled up to my chest my bed was so lonely I wish so much that daniel was there with me i just looked at my lock screen of zach 
                          

                            

                                
                            
                              
                                  
                              
                              
                                
                                  
                                  
                                
                              
                             
                            
                            
                          
                          
                          
It doesnt have a clear view of his face but still hes beautiful every picture I have of my boy comes straight from corbyn. Then s wild thought comes to mind im going to Minnesota despite what everyone else says I mean hell corbyns there with them rightnow im going.