Chapter 16 - Kissing a Fool

                                    

                                          


                          
HI!!!!!!  It's been forever!! I know.. I'm sorry. I can't help my health, but I felt pretty good today so I decided to do some writing and guess what... here's an update.  I have not and will not leave this story unfinished...
                          
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Chapter 16 – *Kissing a Fool
                          
You are far
 When I could have been your star
 You listened to people
 Who scared you to death and from my heart
 Strange that you were strong enough
 To even make a start
 But you'll never find
 Peace of mind
 Til you listen to your heart
                          
People
 You can never change the way they feel
 Better let them do just what they will
 For they will
 If you let them
 Steal your heart from you
 People
 Will always make a lover feel a fool
 But you knew I loved you
 We could have shown them all
 We should have seen love through
                          
Sitting in the outdoor café, Rory is glad summer is ending and the temperatures are getting back into the 80's and below, especially near the coast.  The incredibly hot summers were not her favorite thing about California, but the outdoor café with great food and great coffee were high on her list, especially when it was November and December and she was still enjoying the sun and outdoor eating, while her mom and her love of snow were piling on the winter wear.
                          
She checks her watch for the time but is interrupted, 
                          
"I know I'm a bit late, Love, I haven't' figured out theses damn streets here yet."
                          
"It's ok, you're not late, I was early."  She stutters.  It's still disarming to her to see him here in front of her again.
                          
"May, I?" He questions as he pulls out the chair across from her.
                          
She nods and he sits and orders a drink when the waitress approaches.
                          
Finn is caught up in watching her.  She's looking anywhere but directly at him, but she looks stunning.  The sun catches the natural highlight in her hair and she seems to glow.  He scoots his chair a bit closer to her side of the table.  He wants nothing more then to have some sort of physical contact with her.
                          
She jumps as his chair makes a noise against the floor beneath them. Finally looking at him as he puts his hand over hers on the table.
                          
"I'm glad you answered." He says
                          
"I don't know what I am, Finn." She responds in a moment of blunt honesty.
                          
The room is bustling around them but they sit in silence gain.  Finn can't help but notice she hasn't drawn her hands away.  It gives him hope.
                          
"I'm not quite sure I know what I am either." He says.  He just wants to talk about it all.  "I'm stunned by the beauty of seeing you again, I'm buzzing to be near you, I'm hopeful because you answered my call and," Here he pauses  before continuing, "you haven't moved your hand, and to be totally honest with you, Love, I'm angry that my best mate kissed you.  I'm hurt that you kissed him back and I'm furious that it's all because I didn't go after you like every bone in my body told me to do that day." He finishes what he never intended to actually come out of his mouth, but there it is, all of it, the truth.
                          
Rory looks completely taken aback by his abruptness.  It's a mess.  This whole damn thing.  
                          
For Rory it's not as simple as he should have gone after her the day she got on the plane to California. She feels like all of this is her fault.  If she had never wanted to write the LDB article, never followed Logan, never pressed him to ask her out, never agreed to date to his best friend when Logan didn't ask her.  If she's listened to him more about Stephanie instead of acting on instincts and running...