I stopped at it being strongest, opening my eyes to see one of Poe's jackets. I pushed all other clothes aside, my main focus on this beautiful piece of leather. I searched the pockets until my hand colliding into a piece of metal. Grasping it, I gasped. 
                          
"Summer!" I heard Poe call my name, but all I cared about was what was in my hand.
                          
My lightsaber. 
                          
I grasped the weapon tight, feeling the crystal connect with me once more. To be reunited was the greatest feeling...but...
                          
If Poe had this all along, why was he keeping it from me?
                          
"Summer!"
                          
I snapped from the trance and turned to see him standing dripping wet holding a towel around his waist. What I noticed (somehow) before that was the look of fear across his face since I was now holding what may be the most deadly weapon the galaxy had ever seen. BB-8 was also on full defense mode, his taser out and ready to shock me. Despite being no match, he was ready to sacrifice himself to save his master, yet that wasn't my objective. Although I was mad.
                          
"Summer...let me have that..." Poe said gently, reaching his palm out. "Just put it in my hand, okay?"
                          
"When did you obtain this?" I asked, almost in a way of demand.
                          
"Let me have that first-"
                          
"No Poe. Answer me now."
                          
He sighed. "When you wanted your satchel back...I found the lightsaber and kept it behind. I wasn't sure I could trust you yet; you did just get here after all. I had full intentions of giving it back to you in the future..."
                          
"Was that day ever to come?"
                          
He couldn't answer. He didn't have one.
                          
"I see." I ignited the weapon, the red glow carting eerie shadows in the closet. BB-8 was completely freaking out now and even Poe backed up, reaching behind him to his nightstand, which I'm sure he had a hidden blaster. 
                          
"Don't do it," I warned, sensing his fear. 
                          
"I'm sorry." Reacting on instinct, he drew his blaster and shot a stun ray at me. I sliced it in two and pulled the weapon from his hand to me with the Force. That blew his mind.
                          
"Poe, I'm not going to hurt you. I'm not the threat you need to end," I spoke, tossing the blaster back into the closet, letting it hide itself amongst his clutter. "The lightsaber is not just a weapon for those that wield it. The crystal within has a deep connection to the owner, thus is why I sensed it and could find it while meditating." 
                          
As for how I didn't find it sooner is beyond me. I have been a slacking a bit since I got here...
                          
"Summer, if the rest of the Resistance find out you have that back-"
                          
I groaned. "You know, I'm getting sick of having to pretend to be one way or another to get people to like me. Kylo can't accept me for who I am, neither can you, or Leia,  or anyone in this freaking galaxy! Well guess what? You want my help?" I sliced the restraining bracelet off my leg. "We're doing this my way."
                          
Poe's eyes widened. "You...Summer they're going to-"
                          
"I don't care. I'm finally going to embrace the person I truly want to be. Use whatever side of the Force I want, be the kind of hero I want. You're either with me or against me. You either trust me or don't. Make a decision Poe."
                          
He looked troubled and frightened over my sudden change of character. But I can't help it. I'm just done.
                          
There was suddenly loud knocks at the door. "Open up!"