perfect

                                    

                                          
tears poured down my eyes, fast. before the rain even managed to come to touch with the ground. 
The feeling of my body burning and tearing to pieces made me understand how wrong I was, how scared I was. 
It made me realize how bad I wanted to go back and change the decisions I've made, people meant to be wrong, people learn from their mistakes. 
But from what I did there's nothing to learn, a man who would've thought normally would never do that. 
But that can't be changed, and like life itself has showed me ; it's better saying the truth before people will find it out theirselves. 
I wish the truth was that I have never done it, that it was just a dream. 
instead, it's a nightmare I can't escape from.
Lost in thoughts the door swang open to reveal zendaya with a big toothy grin dancing on her lips. usually I would smile myself, wrap my arms around her, kiss her on the cheek. 
But not today. 
"Hey Tommy" she said while dropping her bag on the counter. 
"Hey, I need to tell you something, you would probably walk away but you deserve to know the truth" I said as I took a deep breath. her smile got soften as she placed a hand on my shoulder, shivers went down my spine. 
"Nothing in the world will scare me away from you" she exclaimed and added a chuckle. 
"I- i" was all I managed to get out of my mouth that now was in pain, realizing how much I probably cried for the past hours. 
"I cheated on you" I said while breaking down in tears . The toothy grin that danced on her lips was no longer seen, it was replaced by sadness. 
That was overwhelming for her, I could tell by the look of her eye, I could tell how hurt she was. 
I don't mind how much I will get hurt as long as it's not her, as long as I'm protecting her. Instead I just knocked her out with the shield I held in front of her. 
"Why?" She choked out, tears streamed down her puffy eyes. 
"I thought you didn't love me anymore" I said, hardly swallowing my saliva. 
"What you did only shows that you're the one who doesn't love me anymore" she cried. 
I was heartbroken, it was the opposite, the exact opposite. I did loved her I guess I just...broke.
"I think I need a break" she choked out while wiping her tears away. 
"You mean, from me?" I asked,
Praying she would say no.
"Yes" 
---
The door closed in front of me, leaving me still standing there and crying, still regretting everything I did, still being disappointed with myself. 
"Do you think we will ever break up?"
Zendaya asked me as my hands were wrapped around her body
"To be honest, I see myself with you my whole life" I replied, glaring at her face. 
"I love you" she said almost in a whisper, 
"I love you too, so much" I replied, now glaring her her lips
As a blink of an eye she was sitting on my lap and kissing me passionately, and I kissed her back. Wishing it would last forever. 
I moved my head sharply and blinked a few times, she still wasn't here, i daydreamed
"I have a suprise, close your eyes" I chuckled looking at zendaya 
"Okie dokie" she laughed and covered her eyes with her hands. 
"No peeking!" I yelled while laughing as I coughed her peek. 
"Ughhh fine" she said saractsticly and fully covered her eyes. 
I connected my phone to the bluetooth and a soft music started playing.
"Open your eyes" I said blushing
She opened them and frowned.
"I found a love for me
Darling just dive right in
And follow my lead
Well I found a girl beautiful and sweet 
I never knew you were the someone waiting for me" I sang aside the familiar melody of perfect by ed Sheeran. 
"Cause we were just kids when we fell in love Not knowing what it was
I will not give you up this time
But darling, just kiss me slow, your heart is all I own
And in your eyes you're holding mine.
Baby, I'm dancing in the dark with you between my arms
Barefoot on the grass, listening to our favorite song
When you said you looked a mess, I whispered underneath my breath
But you heard it, darling, you look perfect tonight"
I finished closing the music
"Tom" she sniffled and looked at me in awe 
"Thank you" she said and wrapped her arms around me.
"Happy one year anniversary girlfriend" I said with a chuckle 
"Happy one year anniversary doof" she replied and pulled me into a kiss.
My eyes shot open as I realized I was daydreaming again. She always managed to be on my thoughts, even if she didn't wanted. 
-
"Nothing in the world will scare me away from you" she exclaimed and added a chuckle.