darkness and diaries

                                    

                                          
Zendayas pov
Darkness, the polar opposite to brightness is understood as a lack of illumination or an absence of visible light. People find darkness scary. They're afraid of not knowing where they are, afraid of losing control. But darkness shows how much we care about the people who are the closest to us. By the darkness you found out you can recognize everyone by their voices. Just by the sound of their laugh or cry. By the darkness we know how they feel, suddenly we hear the emotion in their voice. 
Sometime, try this with your friends.
Close your eyes and listen to each other talking, it's like magic. 
But that wasn't the darkness I was talking about, This meaning of darkness is preserved in the phrase kept in the dark, neaning purposely keeping information from someone. in addition to being the opposite of light, dark describes things that are gloomy, difficult to interpret or heavy, like a dark movie whose main character feels alienated from society.
Everyone has some kind of darkness inside of them, if it's self harming or pretending to be someone else. It can be anything that is odd, heavy. 
"So you write a diary?" 
I lift up my eyes to see Tom, the guy I met yesterday, asked me with a soft smile.
"Um yeah, but it's kinda personal you know" I said slamming the diary shut and avoiding eye content. 
"Of course" he assured me as he sat by my side.
"You look like an interesting girl if you know what I mean. In our days people hardly write diaries, heck hardly lift up their eyes from their phones" 
He said and added a chuckle. 
I nodded and looked at the ground. 
I can tell I'm an awkward person, and communicating with people is not so easy, at least not for me. 
"Guys that's all for today you're free to leave" the producer yelled. Thank God . "Um well I should probably just go to my apartment" I said to tom and hopped on my legs, I grabbed my bag and ran off. 
But little did I know my diary fell from my bug and a curious guy sat by it. 
Toms pov
"Um well I should probably just go to my apartment" zendaya said and ran away. I signed looking at my watch "2pm" I got on my feet when I realized a notebook on next to me. 
I took it and looked close. It said 'Zendaya' on the cover. My eyes scanned every detail of the notebook when they landed on a note;  "please don't read this (diary)" my eyes sparkled and I put it into my bag. 
If it's not right to read this diary then I won't mind being wrong. 
After an hour or so I found myself sitting on the sofa while holding her diary.
I tried convincing myself it's wrong but I just had, I'm so sorry please forgive me. 
I opened the first page. "June 26 - spiderman homecoming audition" 
I started reading it when I noticed i was stupid all along. I should go read what she wrote yesterday. I bet it'll be more juicy. 
"October 16 - billie eliot? "
I laughed at the title and started reading.
the world was made to be against us. 
If we wished today would be a good day the world would throw on us the excapt opposite. 
But today I felt it in a different way, 
In like a 'I really like this guy but he won't ever like me back' way. 
He had a flawless skin and shiny eyes. 
His hair was so soft and his smile made me melt in my place. I could stare at him forever and never get bored. I could try to learn every detail in his face but fail, because every time, I'll see something I've never seen before. His face is a maze I get lost in. 
Something did looked familiar, I saw his face before I can tell. I spend an hour thinking until I realized he was billie elliot at the play. Is there something he can't do?
If I had the courage to ask him out I would, except the fact that I'm shy, a guy has also broke my heart before. 
It's scary , so scary. But this guy, this guy is worth breaking my heart. 
I closed the diary with shock, shock and happiness, she liked me back. 
My smile was yet so big and I felt fireworks in my body. 
I have to do something, and the perfect timing is now. 
A day after
I ran to set like I never have. 
I was gonna ask her out and nothing could stop me. 
I laughed at myself thinking I was running like an idiot who's trying to get his girl when I bumped into a wall. 
"Holy shit you okay?" A soft voice asked me and got closer by the second. 
"Yeah I'm fine" I chuckled and noticed I was talking to zendaya. 
"Oh hey" I said with a fruity voice, we exchanged smiles. "By the way I kinda lost my diary, you have any idea where it is?" She asked me with concern. I could tell she was worried that someone read it, and again I'm so sorry please forgive me. 
"Yeah I found it yesterday on the floor and I put it in my bug so I could return it to you tomorrow" I said searching for it in my bag
"Oh thanks" she said and waited for me to give it back. 
But it wasn't there, I forgot it on the table at my house. 
"Um I kinda forgot it on the table in my house" I said with nervousness
"Why would you take it out, did you read it?" She asked with fear
"Of course not, the table just wanted to um know how a diary feels" I assured her. 
"You read it haven't you?" She asked pacing up and down
"I'm sorry, I'm so sorry" I said as I placed my hands on my head, I wanted so badly to ran away from this situation. She was about to say something when I stopped her with my own words.
"On the other hand, I wanted to let you know that I um like you too" I said with an awkward smile. 
She did the exact same look as I did and covered her cheeks. 
"I'm sorry again for reading your diary, but I'm glad I did because now I can ask you on a date" I said while blushing.
"And I won't break your heart, ever" I added and got closer to her. She smiled and pulled me into a hug. 
"If that was how you asked me on a date it's a yes" she whispered into my ear and pulled back from the hug. 
there was a long adventure ahead of us, but for now let's just pass the date.