Chapter 21 ~ Pain

                                    

                                          



        
                          
Marks POV
                          
I sit at my desk crying, I don't want to do this but I have to and I'm so happy I at least get to leave with a word. Fuck this is going to kill Kate! Or actually let her start her life properly, not me distracting her from other guys. I cant believe I haven't properly spoken to her for one week, I miss her so much! Well here it goes
                          
'Hi Kate, well I don't know how to put this but I can't speak to you anymore. I got busted online and thank christ I can send you one more message. I have enjoyed talking to you, wish I could talk to you still but all I want you to know is that you are one amazing girl and I'm jealous of any guy that gets you. I wish I could watch you grow older, into a more mature woman, I forget your only 20! I hope you have a good life and everything works out for you. I will truly miss you my darling. Take care now....Love Mark' Sent, the tears fall even harder. Wife wants to check that I messaged goodbye and is going to delete my account once I get home. I look out my window, a dark and cold day here today, just how I feel. I look up into the sky and wonder if Kate is staring up too.
                          
Back to Kate
                          
I wake up with a smile on my face, I had a relaxing night yesterday and slept really well. I go to message Josh but see I have a message from Mark, wow finally he wants to speak to me. I smile to myself, I really do like him, I've missed him so much. Okay time to open the message.
                          
'Hi Kate, well I don't know how to put this but I can't speak to you anymore. I got busted online and thank christ I can send you one more message. I have enjoyed talking to you, wish I could talk to you still but all I want you to know is that you are one amazing girl and I'm jealous of any guy that gets you. I wish I could watch you grow older, into a more mature woman, I forget your only 20! I hope you have a good life and everything works out for you. I will truly miss you my darling. Take care now....Love Mark' I feel my heart shatter. What? This can't be! My eyes fill with tears, I can't breathe, my throat goes dry and I just let it all out into my pillow. I sob and sob even scream! I stay like that for a few hours, till I can ring out all the tears out of my pillow. I get out of bed and run to my car. I get in and hear that stupid song play, I take the cd out and throw it out the window. I check my phone to see if he messaged me again but theres nothing, I type 'I fuck'n love you' I don't send it but cry my eyes out even more. I drive to Sarah's house, I ring the bell and she opens the door and I just fall onto her balling my eyes out. She pats my head and says
                          
"Come in, fuck that asshole". I show her the message and ask her for some help on what to write back "You know he didn't want to do this, its just cause he got busted"
                          
"I know but it still fucking hurts!"
                          
"I know I know" "Okay give me your phone, I will write something but not send it without your permission"
                          
"Okay"
                          
'Mark, this journey has been a lot of fun, wish it could continue too. Hope everything goes well and you have a good life too. I will miss you too, who knows, one day we might cross paths again. Take care Mark ~ Kate' 
                          
"Is that fine?"
                          
"Perfect, cheers" "Sarah"
                          
"Yeah"
                          
"Today I learnt that I don't want to feel love, he hurt me so much I'm never gonna trust a man again"
                          
"You say that now but you will be back"
                          
"I know, men are irresistible" She winks at me "Wanna have a fun night?"
                          
"Oh yes please"
                          
"New dates?"