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I arrive at the house at 6:39 my feet surprisingly don't hurt
I walk through the gate and unlock the house door with my house key.
I rub my face with my hands.
Why is life so difficult.
I walk to my bed reconsidering taylers offer in going to the party's
Eh I have nothing else to do.
I get up from my bed and put music on. I walk over to my mirror and gosh do I hate myself.
I have never felt so low or disgusting of how I look.
I roll my eyes at my reflection that stares back at me from the shining mirror.
After sitting there for a good minute i decide to go to the party i mean why the hell not.
I pull my long hair up and tie it with a hair tie.
I grab an outfit out of my closet.
It is a cropped checkered tank top and then go to my drawer and grab some denim shorts.
I wrap a black belt around my waist and slip on my black vans.
As I add some mascara and lip gloss I get a text from Loren.
We may not be on great terms at the moment but I kinda miss her i don't know I'm weird.
Her text read "did you hear about the party at taylers?"
I smiled at my phone and texted back "yea I did. R u going?"
A few minutes later she texts me back "yea, you should come with me"
I was already gonna go but I don't tell her that instead I say "okay pick me up in 20?"
"Ofc call you when I'm there"
And with that I continue getting ready. I finish last minute touches like add perfume and deodorant.
Getting ready to go to a party is unusual for me I rather 9 times out of 10 i rather stay in bed and watch Netflix or read even. But I felt horrible about my self and like literally felt horrible.
Going to the party and looking semi decent make me feel a little better.
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After I get the phone call from Loren I walk out the house. I didn't bother to take a purse or bag because all I have is my phone. Which is always with me.
"Hey girly" I smile to her
"Heyyy!! Omg you look wow gorgeous!" She squeals
I don't look much different than usually but I won't lie I looked worse earlier so this is a boost. Oh and I added concealer because my bags were rough.
"Thank you, and you don't ever you look amazing" I tell her I mean when does she not she's like a breathing, living, walking Barbie
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The car ride wasn't even awkward we actually had a lot of stuff to talk about. Which thankfully didn't involve joey.
"Okay great we're here 30 min late but we're here" she laughs
"I mean it's a party full of drunk people they won't even know the time" I state the obvious but laugh at how true it is
"Okay okay but for real" she said touching her stomach from laughing "how do I look" she says before pulling out a lip gloss from her purse.
"Oh come on Loren" I sigh
"I'm serious" she smiles
"Okay Fine you look great now can we go"
"Why in a rush the party isn't gonna go.. but to answer your question yes let's go!"
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As we reach the door Loren turns to me and asks "do you think joey might ask me to dance? Or I don't know do something?"
Remember when I said we talked and never mentioned joey. Yea..... scratch that she just did
"Of course and if he doesn't don't worry there is many other guys who would die for you to dance with them" I smile reassuring her it's true she has guys after guys who want her but she wants joey and well Joey... is joey and never mind
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DIDNT PROOF READ THIS CHAPTER!!
I haven't updated since December 16,2018 omg how embarrassing... LIKE HIDE MY FACE EMBARRASSING... I'm currently on summer break but I'm working not at the moment my schedule is wonky but I will go but and grind on this book so expect more chapters maybe even today!!!
6/19/19
