Part 27

                                    

                                          


                          
"CAMILA MAY BAKER" I hear pounding on my door waking me from my sleep "OPEN UP THIS SECOND" 
                          
Groaning I sit up on the couch, stretching my neck out I stand and walk over to the front door yanking it open "Can you stop screaming before you wake half the block" I say 
                          
"Well I wouldn't have to scream so goddamn loud if you answered your phone or opened the door, or you know WERE WHERE YOU WERE SUPPOSE TO BE" Emily says as she storms into my apartment, closing the door behind her I sigh 
                          
"I cannot believe you left the hospital and lied to me about it" she says annoyed 
                          
"I just wanted to be alone" I reply walking into the kitchen filling the coffee pot up 
                          
Following me into the kitchen Emily looks around confused "I thought your apartment was trashed" she says 
                          
"It was" I reply confusion crossing my face "Wait, you didn't clean my apartment?" 
                          
"No, I wasn't really allowed to leave the house while all this shit was happening" she says shrugging "So who cleaned?" 
                          
Sighing I just give her the look "I'll give you one guess if it wasn't you" I say 
                          
"Alright, what is going on with you two? Seriously?" She says 
                          
Shrugging I pour us both a cup of coffee, grabbing the milk out of the fridge. 
                          
"Cami, I'm serious, no more bullshit, I need to know what is going on with you two" she says firmly 
                          
"Alright" I say sighing, grabbing my cup "We should probably make ourselves comfortable it's a long ass story" We both head into the lounge room getting comfortable on the couch 
                          
We sit in silence for a few minutes
                          
"Well?" Em says waiting for me to start 
                          
Taking a deep breathe in I start to tell Em our story, starting from when we met, our emails, the hopes I had for our future, her wedding night all the way up to our latest fight. The only thing I leave out is him giving me the gun. By the time I'm finished my voice is hoarse taking a sip of my coffee I realise it's gone cold.  
                          
"What did he say when you told him how hurt you were when he came home?" she asks me the first thing she's said in ages 
                          
"I didn't tell him" I say shrugging 
                          
"Camila" she sighs "you need to talk to him like an adult, you cannot just fly off the handle and expect him to know why you are like this" 
                          
I sit there silently, extremely interested in my coffee 
                          
"Cami, I'm serious you need to make a decision" she says reaching for my hand "when you are in this life, you make a choice to either live inside the circle and you'll know everything that happens or you can live outside the circle and know nothing and feel everything, you need to decide what you want to do" watching me she continues "living inside the circle means you are with Nestor, one hundred percent, and you accept that he has a job besides Miguel or you live outside the circle and this comes to an end now, you two cannot keep doing what you are doing, you will destroy him" 
                          
"I love you and you are my best friend but this shit between the two of you, it's not healthy and it's affecting my family. Once you decide there's no going back Cami" she says hugging me 
                          
I don't respond, I sit there thinking about everything she just said 
                          
Standing up Em smooths her dress down "I need to go, but if you need anything let me know" she says kissing my forehead and leaving my apartment. 
                          
Walking over to the door I lock it behind her, heading to my bedroom I crawl beneath the covers pulling them up over my head and only once I'm in my cocoon of blankets do I let the tears fall.