Chapter 7

                                    

                                          
~~Dean's POV~~
                          
I sighed and walked with Cas to the waiting room until Sam's nurse walked out and I stood up with Cas. 
                          
The nurse motioned for us to follow him and we did. I was dreading what the man would tell us. I didn't want to know and yet I knew I had to. I knew I wanted to. 
                          
Cas held my hand and gave a reassuring squeeze. 
                          
"So uh what's wrong with him?" I asked looking at the nurse. 
                          
~~Sam's POV~~
                          
They already left. "Gabe they already left." I said sadly. 
                          
"I know Sammy but hey I'm still here. It's okay. At least they did come see you."
                          
I nodded slowly. "Yeah I guess...I want to go home." I sighed sadly.
                          
But I knew I couldn't. And it was okay. I was okay with staying here. I really was. 
                          
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I sat at home reading the newspaper. I didn't really want to do the dishes so I didn't. I liked to know what was going on in the news, sometimes. 
                          
I looked up at the clock on the far wall of our wallpapered kitchen, Gabe was suppose to be home from work by now. Where was he?
                          
I waited..
                          
And waited. And after a few hours when it was dark out my husband still wasn't home and I started to get worried. 
                          
I told myself that I was just being paranoid so I waited another hour and a half and then I decided that I wasn't and that I should call the police. 
                          
So I did. And I filed a missing persons report. 
                          
"Gabriel Winchester you said his name was?" The police man on the other line said. I replied with a yes and after a few more questions we both hung up. 
                          
I waited up all night until finally the phone rang. 
                          
"We've located Gabriel Winchester.. I'm sorry to have to say but I have some bad news.. Gabriel Winchester died th..."
                          
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No that was a fake memory. Just a bad dream. Gabriel is right here next to me. I got sick and then he came to live at the hospital with me..he's not dead. Stupid dreams..
                          
~~Dean's POV~~
                          
No. I'm walking out. 
                          
I don't want to hear this. But Cas had me in a hug so I couldn't exactly move.
                          
The doctor looked at us sadly as we all faced each other sitting in chairs. 
                          
"Well you see your brother has hallucinations and he thinks things are true when they are not. He's in denial about his husbands death so he's created sort of like a safe place to be in."
                          
I swallowed and looked at Cas who rubbed my back. It was all Gabriel's fault. Why'd he have to go and die?
                          
"So what does that mean exactly?" Cas asked.
                          
"Well.." The nurse looked to me with a bit of concern and I just gave a small nod not trusting myself to speak and so the man continue. 
                          
"He believes that he's sick and that he's in a hospital. He believes that Gabriel is right beside him all the time and that he can hear and feel him.."
                          
I took a deep breath. Keep it together Dean. Dean Winchester did not cry..except in front of Castiel. But that was a whole different story..and I was still completely manly when I did...
                          
"What does he think he's sick with?" Cas asked tilting his head slightly. I love when he does that it's so cute. It's so..him. Yeah that's good Dean focus on Cas. Then you won't cry. 
                          
The nurse gave a sigh and looked at a clipboard that was in his lap. "He believes that he has this disease or sickness or something where he can't leave the hospital. He believes that he can't move any of his limbs.."
                          
I blinked. The restraints keeping him tied to the bed...
                          
"..He also believes that he's blind and can only see white."
                          
The restraints keeping him down. He can only look at the white ceiling... Oh Sammy..
                          
"And no matter what medicine we give him he doesn't seem to give up that Gabriel really isn't here...we..we can't help him but keep him here.."
                          
I couldn't help myself anymore. I leaned (more like collapsed) heavily into Cas' arms and buried my face in his shirt. I started to cry. Barely though. I was just barely tearing up. I'm glad Castiel was there though. 
                          
~~Castiel's POV~~
                          
Dean leaned into me and I had to recover for a few seconds before I got my balance again and I just held Dean to me tightly. He was crying. No wait..he was bawling. Legit bawling. 
                          
I've only witnessed it a few times and this would be number four or five of him completely breaking down like this. Sure he's cried plenty of times but not like this. Not like he is now. 
                          
The nurse stood up with a half awkward, half sympathetic look. "I'll give you some time." And that was it. The last time we saw the nurse. He walked out of the room and we were alone. 
                          
I started to rub Dean's back in soothing circles. "Shh shh baby I know, I know.. Shh." This went on for a while, him crying into my shirt (making it soaking wet at my shoulder and part of my chest) and me rubbing his back an whispering soothing words. 
                          
Then he started to calm down enough to where he was just sniffling and wiping his eyes. He sat up to look at me and I ran my thumb over his cheeks to wipe some tears away. 
                          
"Cas..Sammy he's gone..he's crazy..my brother isn't here anymore.." He sniffled again and his lip was still trembling. 
                          
I gave a small sad smile holding Dean's face gently. "No he's not Dean. He's still here. He's still your brother Sam. Sure he might be a little broken but despite everything..and I know you won't want to see him like this again but you know what?"
                          
He shook his head slightly looking to me for an answer. For something to make this okay. For me to fix it. And although I couldn't, he wanted (needed) me to. And so..I did. For him. 
                          
"Despite everything your little brother has been through and despite what anyone thinks about him he's..."
                          
~~Sam's POV~~
                          
Despite everything happening to me and what anyone thinks, I have Gabe. 
                          
And you know what? 
                          
I am happy.
                          
~~Dean's POV~~
                          
"..He's happy." 
                          
Castiel finished. And I know it wasn't going to completely fix anything but he was right. Sammy was happy and that's all I ever wanted for my little brother. 
                          
Maybe not in the same way as how it did happen. But it is like this an no one can change it. But it doesn't matter because my brother is..
                          
Happy. 
                          
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THE END!!!